Coping with the Psychopath/Narcissist Child

This last week has been full of reading and research on N disorder. I do feel empowered to know more now, but it hurts so much at the same time. The thought of no contact with her makes me so sad and the guilt feelings are there too, as it is my choice to have not contact. I am dreading the holiday season as it will be a lonely time for me again. I can't help but think that it won't last either...she will contact me some way for some reason, some crisis or just to "reel me in again". When she was about 3 yrs. old we were at the public library. She was chattering to me and I told her to hush, that we were in a place that requires being quiet. She gave me a look of astonishment but did quiet down. After we got in the car, she told me to "never embarass her in public like that again". For many years I thought that this proved that she was intelligent and that I really had my hands full with her. Little did I know! In retrospect, she did not appologize, nor take responsibility. She turned the situation around to make me the one who was wrong for correcting her. It blows me away to think she displayed N behavior and thinking at this early age. I used to think about this instance and laugh.... I'm not laughing anymore.