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For the past 3 nites it's been very hard for me to sleep because my eyes are wide open and I feel great. It's not energy I possess, but my mind just thinking about everything and not in a bad way either. So I'm going to call Gerald up on Monday and ask him if he thinks maybe the meds are making me way too happy, or it's something else. |
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Tigger, Sometimes you need to take a time out to deal with 'yourself'. I know you have smarts and ability to get past it, it seems that you have the support. Therfore its possible the only thing holding you back is you. (I know that is my problem most of the time.) Anyway, and I'm sorry to be blunt, its time for you decide what you need to do and get it done. No worries about what you do or say in here, this is pretty good place to rant, rave, or whine about whatever. As you can see, we all do it, and we all get away with it! (and we are equally full of advice that may or may not help lol) Go ahead and call the stress management person, likely they will tell you that you dont need so much outside help. Good luck. |
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heart of steel said it good! its time u thought of simply urself hon, really its time we all give ourselves a break and break away from what ever else anyone else needs we all know what you've been through and how you've given so much of yourself, mentally, to all around you walk away, take a break........release yourself from the fucking stress that you had nothing to do with baby............we all want to hug you and support you as everyone else has been there for everyone here!! |
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Tigger, You said in your post, "Even as I was taking things....". You were not taking "things", you were taking pills. Pills that could kill you. That was serious and maybe it's time to stop outsmarting the doctors and let them know everything you are feeling so they will know how to help you. You sound pretty depressed. Maybe meds would help?? |
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Doesn't your job cover sick-leave? You'd mentionned before how it had a really good benefits package. Before just up and leaving it - you really should check into it. Even without an intention to return, you may be covered - medically - for whatever comes next for you. Even if it just continues to cover your medication it's worth keeping. |
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great idea monty! yea, check that! mw |
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MW...you were right in your email, I read the wrong name. It all makes sense now. They have a short term disability thing...but I would have had to sign up for it when I signed up for benefits, and I hadn't...nothing automatic, and trying to prove mental illness is an actual sickness within this company sure isn't easy. Most of the people I've known that had major episodes were eased out one way or another...they don't want to deal with us, just sweep it under the rug, make the unpleasant people go away. I do know there are programs locally that'll pay for my meds...not worried about that one. Well, under the Family Medical Leave Act I know I could take time off...but it won't be paid. Robin, I'm on some medications...next month at my appointment I'm going to ask about adding something for depression and/or anxiety. I do see that I'll never get this stuff under control without meds, like it or not...tried it for years, didn't work...just did get my prescriptions refilled this weekend, so I have a month to either find another job or get free meds set up. Even without current insurance my medications don't total $50 so it isn't bad. Yet. I was totally honest this weekend with every doctor I talked to. Poor Lonnie had no idea how bad it was in my head, he's blaming himself for everything. He was only a tiny part of the problem, he wasn't THE problem. |
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Tigger, I didn't mean to sound so harsh.  I'm sorry. I was just concerned for you. Depression can be deadly. |
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I didn't take you as harsh Robin, not at all...I know I scared a few people, and I feel bad for that...I know when I'm scared I tend to lash out in what sounds like anger but it isn't. I appreciate everyone's concern...they asked me last night if I ever feel alone...it's strange how you can feel alone even when you are surrounded by loved ones...right now I'm concentrating on the fact that I AM surrounded by loved ones...it makes it easier to fight. |
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Just a thought... but it seems like a documented suicide attempt might be an uncontestable sort of argument for mental illness. ...just seems to me.... Also seems to me that by law they can't just dump you leaving you without the benefits to deal with it - but are bound to give you at least a minimum amount of time to deal with it. Doctor-documented time, for sure - but that's what you need anyhow, isn't it??? Then if they fire you anyway later down the line - you've lost nothing. You were going to quit anyway. But if they fire you right off the bat, you've got a case. I'm not the suing type. By no means. But I am very adamant that the rights of the underdog be stood up for. I'd doubt it would come to that anyhow. Find out what your rights are. Don't do anything rash. (and good luck!!! Hope today is a better day!!!) |
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Tigger I sure am glad that I posted this thread and now you're getting all kinds of 411 on what to do. Please try and hold out quitting your job girl. It might be your only sanity although I do know this bitch is causing you all kinds of grief. What if you can't find a job real fast? Then it will be another burden on your mind and might make things worse. I know me not working all these yrs did me in really good and not in a good way either. This is why it's vital that I do something at the hospital and I can't wait. Proving your mental instability is way hard as I just got denied a 3rd damn time for social security and now I'm giving up on it all together. PPL keep on telling me to stick w/it the 4th time and it's an 85% chance I'll get it, but I feel like I have a lot to offer the working industry and want to be back in it. Whatever you feel like doing is your call though and I'm standing behind you 100% like you did for me! |
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yea, I agree, if you can, tig, dont quit your job just yet, till you figure out everything, and have another job waiting for you. You want this one as a ref. if nothing else. you can do it! mw |
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~ your gonna be okay Tigger, you just stay possitive. Without being bipolor women in general have ups and downs. You would just have the tentency to have a greater down. Im glad your family is there for you and with your help they can learn how it is for you and Id imagine that should help alot... Best of luck to you Tigger, your in my thoughts... Id give you a hug if I was there.. |
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Here I am again today praying for all the best for you Tigger. I can so relate to what you're going through and I know how difficult times like this can be. I'm here baby if ya' need me. I talked to Gerald on Monday and he said chances are I'm just doing better and life is going good for me and it's not a state of mania, but sheer happiness and I'm at peace w/myself. |
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Isn't that odd how we can get so used to the downs, that when we have an up we assume we're manic instead of just having a good time in life? I'm glad things are better for you...knowing that gives me hope too. Long distance hugs all over ya! |
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Ty Tigger and I know for sure your hugs are true and are heartfelt. You're a very super person no matter what you think of yourself. We're in this together. Don't forget this. |
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