sorry i just have to get this off my chest.. im so sad about my friend no longer being my friend.. its been a week since it happened but it still hurts, i miss talking to her everynight like we did, just chitchatting about nothing in particular.. oh i know im better off without her as she was using me and stuff, but thats partly my fault for doing it, letting her use me i mean.  but i am still feeling sad because i thought she was a good freind, but just turned out not to be what i thought.  guess im also mad at myself for letting this happen yet again, but now im going to be smart and am going to be more gaurded in who i trust anymore.. my hearts been broken too many times and im tired of it, so boy am i going to be careful from now on.  i dont know what to do to take the sadness away, i thought about deleting all the pics i have of her and her animals as it makes me sad to think i wont ever see her again, but for some reason i just cant do it, its the only thing i have left.. whever i look at my knitting i think of her because we used to knit together and we were going to get together once her job settled down and make ourselves sweaters, now i dont even want to knit because it reminds me of her, and so i lose out on that thing now.. i know i shouldnt let her get to me, but he's already got to me, and i dont know what to do to stop it.. thanks for letting me vent abit, i should have done it sooner i think, but i was just hurting so much.  huggs suzy