Hi Roz im not sure what you had if it was key hole surgery or not that is the one I had but I must admit it took a while because they wouldnt believe me that I had gallstones and I ended up with pancreatis they say one of the stones mustve fell out and started it off but I also had a lump come up in my breast at the same time ,and I felt like some thing had burrst in my stomache but they kept saying not possible any how I had a bright flash of red obviously a blood vessel burst and I vomited instantly but they still wouldnt believe me when I said I had trouble swallowing etc and low and behold because they didnt do the right tests I do have a cyst on my thyroid gland which theyve discovered here but scotland hospital was a nightmare they had me down as some sort of looney and kept turning me away from a and e because I was passing out all over the place any how theyve now discovered Ive got multiple cysts/growths on my liver the biggest one being 11 mm at the min but I also found another lump under my right ear when I went to church the other evening and focused on the eagle carving there .I told them all along it started with a snap like feeling in my neck and they found blood in my ear but low and behold thats the medical proffesion for ya. I ve also got these symbols that appeared five in total and im saying well they got to be connected some how derrrr they dont just appear out of no where and they was in a place apart from one where I couldnt see but I noticed sommat on my mums neck so I got my friends to check and they drew pctures of wwhat they was and I believ theyre connected with the great spirit obviously some how because of the sshapes and what they represent. Any how things are pretty bad hence I know why Im being guided home now  all I can say hun is I also was a bit tearful after the op especially when they kicked me out the cubicle cus they didnt believe me and I ended up having a right slanging match with the consultant and you know what when my blood tests came back he came over and said debra come here I looked and he said your right you need to go to surgical ward 8 staright away lol no appologie nothing and I had bad pancreatis lol but because I wasnt screaming the place down , so you keep your chin up and you make the most of those kids while you can because to be honest I dont think I will get much longer with mine and every second counts , believe me and the best thing is they dont relise it because I dont want them to behave any differently so im here with one and the others I just chat too as normal on the phone

 

Chin up youll get through it ,

Take Care

Debs

thanks for your reply debs

im so sorry u had such a lousy time before being diagnosed. it must have been horrible for u. i was much more fortunate in that it was diagnosed before it got too bad. i must say i'm feeling slightly better in myself and the children r easier to cope with now. i don't know what the symbols r that u refer to but i guess that u understand them, i will keep u in my thoughts and prayers and hope that u get to see lots more of your grandchildren

thankyou also heaven-leigh u r right i do need my space back but it looks like that is now a distinct possibility.

got to do an update. my daughter has got her own place and moves next week so i'll finally have my home back. she'll only be five minutes up the road so i'll still see them plenty. guess i should have had more faith in the universe

Good for you  Im trying this universe stuff out at the minute, ive been asking for a man in my life that I could have erm a sexual relationship with, I feel ready now to surrender to love lol

Rain hun , perhaps you are looking or wishing  too hard. That can happen too. Take a step back , enjoy life, you will find someone come along when you are least expecting it

 

Love

BlueBell xx

sometimes, i think, the universe provides what we need in ways that don't always seem to be what we want and its only afterwards that we can see that. good luck with your search rain hope it works out well for u. keep us posted