Hi...

 

  I dont know where to start, how to start, but i am suffering, i feel im on the edge of a huge brekdown, meltdown, something. I want to scream, cry, break things.

I had another close call with death again about a week ago, it was a bad scene in a cemetery that lasted between 6-7hrs! Maybe i shouldnt have been there, however i was. Unfortunately, somehow, the rear end of my car went backwards over the edge of a cliff! One of the car tyres got stuck on a tree stump or something, which prevented the car from tumbling down what looked to me like a very, long, frightening drop, which would have resulted in death. I thought my time had come, i thought i was a goner, dead! I froze on the spot wondering how i might get myself out of this position as fast & slowly as possible. Anyway my last close call was when i was kidnapped & the person told me they were going to kill me.

 

I know i should be happy to be here & to make the most of life, but for some reason i am just not happy & am very angry & am finding life hard now...