Mandy do you remember a year ago today ( was the Friday) you and I were at mum's bedside and trying to lift her spirits and joking with her, and she told us quite firmly off - our real mum.  That was the last time she really was like that, we were so lucky to be with her then.

 

 

 

 

I know Mum is with me just now, as I have been sitting here for a while resizing this photo so it wasn't to big to put on page, and all the time I can smell these flowers, yet they are in the garden, and smell is only right by me.......they are so heady and lovely, Mum's favourites but ones she rarely had, as you don't see them often - I bought them from a man who sells plants from his garden, on Friday,  about 10 mins from me - I wish I had known about him sooner and maybe could have given Mum much pleasure,  They are now in my garden and I hope continue to grow. 

 

Mum these are truely bought for you alone.

 

I will always miss you, I hope you hear me when I talk to you every day.  I know I was blessed to have my Mum for nearly 51 years, but doesn't make losing you any easier.  I still miss you so much. and still I know don't really believe you are truely gone, in my mind I still think you are there in London, and I just cannot visit your or talk to you on the phone.  Kayleigh and I talk about you so much and she tells Dillon about 'Choo Choo' Grandma.

 

Love you forever

 

Shirley  - Mum didn't like me calling myself Debbie

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