Yes, yes, yes to every question.  I have had n/c for about 3 1/2 yrs when our son went to live with relatives.  And this was HIS choice..I told him if he wanted a relationship to call and apologize.  This last month I am finally feeling a breakthrough in depression, and learning to feel real joy, then it came crashing down when my mom asked:  "Is there anything you think you need to do"  (about contacting my son)   She use to babysit him a lot, and she knows exactly how he is.  She even says she doesn't have good memories of him.  It goes back to her believing  God is going to do something... and God can, but I've done my part and why in the world would I want to get back involved with that chaos??? 

All that self doubt, and soul searching that went on for the 15 yrs while I had him welled up inside of me, and ruined my day yesterday!  I hate this!