Hello Dancer,

Thank you for your response.  What you said is true about my N using the grandchildren to manipulate me.  She did'nt hesitate to emotionaly blackmail me with a picture of them sent by email after she had her latest "explosion".  I guess I am supposed to feel guilty, and hurt yet one more time.  But I am NOT buying into it!   I am thankful that there is a lot of miles between us.  As of now, I'm not sure about having absolutely no contact.  It does seem to be the solution though.  Since her last episode I have not contacted her....did not acknowledge the picture of my grandkids.  I hope I am doing the right thing, but as you probably know, it does not matter what I do....because I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.  I feel numb now. But so thankful to be here.  I'm not alone in this hell.

Thanks so much!