I agree with Lynn
People do seem to take the side of the angelic P and it seemed that back in the 70s the theme ran
"The kid's okay - sedate the mother"
This was really good fun - I fell asleep on the kitchen floor with a rampant 2 year old running the show and a pre-term baby asleep in her bedroom
Luckily my mother tried to ring me and when Ididn't answer the phone she drove straight to my place and managed to wake me up by banging the door not far from where I was out to is.
Then for years everyone thought my P was angelic in spite of his behaviour and until the end of his life it seemed to be my problem and my fault
I hope things are changing - and as Lynne as already said - you must find a therapist for yourself to support you - because I know and everyone else here knows that these Ps and Ns and Ss and they come from all over the family
Are really demonic and there is no life with them around at all
Keep in touch
Sparky