i am reeling from the absolute shock of this: my doctors' office left me a phone message; my EX doctor's office that is....the one who "fired me". the sec'y said they had finished making copies of my file....she didn't think she would "be able" to get to the post office "for awhile", so could i come pick it up? yeah, despite the fact that i PAID THEM over five dollars for the mailing costs. i don't even care anymore.
so i went. now this is a very small office....the chart area, where the sec'\ys sit is REALLY small....and there were seven women stuffed into it today...i c alled before i went over, to make very sure the files would be waiting for me. and there they all were, just standing there. i didn't even make eye contact with the doctor....the NICE sec'y handed the charts to me, pointing out that also included were files from the doctor before this one, the one who closed her practice so i needed a new doctor....
i drove to a mall to do some errands, but ofcourse had to look through the files. something i found blew me apart.
over a year ago, this doctor told me she wanted me to taper down on the meds. i agreed. what i realized though was that she believed that someone in the past had put me on narcotics for fibromyalgia. so i became proactive to the HILT....i called and asked for an appt. to just talk with her, to explain that part of my medical history.
the day came, and there we sat. i said i realized that she thought someone had done that, some other doctor, and asked her if my former internists' office hadn't included all the stuff about my shoulder surgeries, neck issues, MRIs, meetings with teh spine surgeon, almost having a fusion procedure, etc. she sat there, doe eyed, and said "no. "
i said "you were totally unaware of ANY of that?" she said "yes".
SHE LIED. she sat there and she LIED TO ME. and darn it all, in my GUT i KNEW IT....i just knew it at the time, but no, i was going to be a "nice patient" and BELIEVE the doctor. doctors don't lie, do they? oh ofcourse not.
well lo and behold, i look through my records and there are the records from the previous internist with ALL THE INFORMATION about the aforementioned shoulder and neck and spine stuff!!!!! that internist's office DID SEND IT. she DID know about it.
am i really that naieve?? i feel so stupid. why didn't i trust my gut? oh, and speaking of trust, on the sheet where she recorded the gist of our conversation the other day, when she "fired me", she wrote "patient has totally destroyed the doctor/patient trust bond".
WHAT??????
oh god.....i called that office THREE TIMES in the montha fter the accident....i tried to get in to see her and was always told to go get an xray, go to the knee specialist, go to the shoulder specialist......i tried to get in to discuss the pain med issue with her......
so I BROKE THE TRUST.....but her LYING TO ME is okay i guess.
i am so angry i don't know what to do with myself.
oh and i KNEW IT , instinctively, at the time!!!
so she played god.....none of my history was even relevant to her....SHE decided what the problem was......oh never mind....i am getting myself all worked up over this...it is making me feel sick to my stomach.
and right smack in the middle of all the papers dealing with the "firing", is a letter written by that sec'y who came out and told me "no, the doctor said you can't see your file...it is hers and you have no right to it.", and i said "gee, aren't i protected by law for that?" and she said "gosh, i don't really know much about that...." and now there is this little "document' where she says "patient DEMANDED to have her file handed over to her and didn't understand that we are a busy office and no one could give in to her DEMAND at that very moment."
oh it just gets worse......
how would any of you, pain comrades, handle this? i know , i know....MOVE ON...i AM moving on, but this is so upsetting......
i will take any advice.....i am so upset..... |
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