Hi:
I am so sorry you had your car accident! At times in each of our lives we can shout "Life Sucks"...and it does sometimes my friend! Some folks have minimum pain and some have severe pain! Some pain flares up and subsides! After my car accident in 1974, when I was discharged from the Marines, I could barely walk. I felt my life had ended and I began to drink every night feeling sorry for myself. As I walked down the middle of my street at 2 am, I said, if someone ran me over right now and killed me, who would come to my grave? No One!
Just then a police car came around the corner and pulled over and stopped. I got up on the sidewalk, and they asked my why I was walking down the middle of the street? Not wanting to have a hangover in jail, I quickly said, "Well officer, the last bar I was in was playing "Walking the line" by Johnny Cash, and honest, I was just walking the line with Johnny Cash!
They both laughed and I pointed to where I lived and they let me walk home! But that day was a turning point for me! I had never been depressed before. I had always tried to be there for other's. Because I didn't take the "Easy way out"; I went on to go to college, have a daughter and a son, and go on to be a writer for 25 years, and now, here I am at this group. It is a terrible thing to endure pain constantly and not have relief. It makes us angry and bitter that others seem to have such a good life!
All I can offer you is to se eif there isn't something the drs. can do for you to ease your pain. I wish I could say more to help you. I am glad you did not take the easy way out.
Raymond.