When it rains it pours.   I've lost so many people in my life, that I can't even begin to list them all. I'm 32 and alone in the world.  I look 19, so it's been a rough struggle.  Things get better..from a musical known as the secret garden, there is a song called "hold on" and I remember one phrase from it..."It's the storm, not you, that's bound to blow away".  We all have dark times in our lives.  Things do get better, and time does heal the pain.  Hope you get to that point soon.  Until then, take care of yourself, and send flowers and cards to all those people.  It does help.