ive not been a member here very long, but ive learned that there is genuine people out there who really do care,and never judge you for your mistakes but try and help you instead,and these people genuinely do care. and do know where these people are?..........rite here in this wonderfull site.......im so glad i found you all. and i hope to get to know you better as time goes on....thanks  for bieng  here...........xxxxx

well ive posted my first readathon lol.its proberly all wrong and for the wrong person lol but hey ill put it down to nerves lol  and also  appologise for messing up lol.

Chrissy, you're doing really great.  Have faith in yourself hunny.

 

Take care,

Love D xxxxxx

ty D .

thats my main problem in spiritual work,i seem to lose confidence in my self  and proberly create my own blocks.But i know spirit are willing and ready to work with me its just my lack of confidence in my self,some thing i have to deal with lol. any tips please?  thanks chrissy xxxx

well i havent posted for a while.

had a few ups and downs which seem to occupy my mind(as they do lol)

but after the experience i had in the park it did make me think that not all ppl are good,as im one of those ppl who tend to trust others.

it just made me wonder ppl like this,do they become another negative entity when they pass over? or do they get help with their problem and mabe change for the better and pass in to the lite?

but it did make me think of children and grown ups who not so lucky to get away and it must have been hell for them.All because of some mentally sick person who preys on them,i say mentally sick becacuse surely they cant be normal.

Any way i went to the park today for the first time since,(i took my hubby.lol) and it did feel strange but im not letting him ruin my life as i love walking in the park.xxx

hmmm...its been too long, i should remember to post here more often!!!

well since i last posted i feel ive become part of the famliy here, every ones so nice and friendly and are always there to help.

i feel ive evolved spiritually since joing this site,and i now know i was destined to come here as i feel its part of my spiritual path way. ive been on many spiritual sites before i found this one but never felt the same welcome as i did here,although some of them were nice sites,i felt drawn to this one very strongly.

and im glad i did.

ive taken part in a couple of readathons and join in the disscussions on the forum, and i really enjoy it....

so to sum it all up, i suppose i must be on the right spiritual path at last.!!!!

rite, i started  a new circle of devlopment on 19/04/05.

i was very nervous as there was a whole new group of people,but the lady who run it made me feel very welcome.

we did a meditation and during this i felt some one was holding my hands,lol. after a while i kept being interupted by a male spirit,he said his name was arther,he was a small build,with receeding hair,but he used his remaining hair to sort of cover the bald part on his head,his hair was dark colour,i remember him wearing a brownish colour mans cardigan and the buttons stood out, they was quite distinct really as they had a cut out pattern on them.

i ask him to draw closer and he replied "if i gwt any closer,i`ll be on your bloody knee".lol.

he told me a few messages to pass on to the lady who run the circle,as he happened to be a close relative of hers,and she laughed when i told her what he said,she said he was quite a character,lol.

after that when i sat down,i was just a nervous wreck,not because of spirit,but because having to stand up and say it in front of a group of new people.lol. and im sure i blocked my self for the rest of the evening because i was too nervous.

mabe in time i will over come this with a bit of help from spirit.

well thats it till next time.

well i went to circle again tonight,

when i walked in i was took back abit by the amount of people there,lol.that made me nervous to start with,lol.well we did med and sat in circle,i got the spirit of an elderly gent,silver white hair,dressed in a suite and he wore gold rimmed glasses. he  was very clean shaven and of very smart appearance.

he was having trouble getting his words out so i believe he had this difficulty when living,(regonition purposes).he sais his name was derek,he ask me to pass a message on to a female in the room,but because i was soooooo nervous i never did it,i appologised to him and told him id foze with nerves,lol,but not of the spirit,of the living,lol.he was very understanding.

i told the lady at the end what had happened and she said it was ok as it was rather a large circle,she said she was gonna push me on tonight but held back as she knew i would be nervous.but she said to me i know you can do it,ive been told you can,so give it time ok.

i said ok.

i feel like ive let spirit down tonight,but i think they understand the reason.im not a very confident person around people whom i dont know,it does annoy me,and i just hope i can over come this big obstacle in time.

well thats it till next time.

well i went to circle again friday evening,

the atmosphere was alot better tonight,energy felt good, got a lot of info from spirit to night and i stould up!!! and did it,lol. wasnt so nervous tonight,

looking forward to tuesday.lol.

thats it for now.

 ah at last mabe this will work,lol.

oh well done chrissy.... nerves are terrible arent they...well done...plain sailing now ... i feel i am more nervous at different times of the month !!! did you try the paul mckenna self confidence tapes ?

love jacci and well done.

  

hmmm...... well i aint wrote in here for a long time,with a few probs holding me back,hopefully ill be able to move on again now.

feel a bit rusty regarding spiritual work but i know i must keep going and bring my self confidence back.

ive just passed my spiritual healing course and have framed my certificate,lol.

ive also stated going to circle again which is good.

ive also joined a wicca class and i love it......mabe i feel at home among witches....lol.

joined a work shop for a bit of divination which im looking forward to at the end of the month.doing scrying,tarrot and tea leaves,(never done tea leaves b4 so this should be interesting lol.)

but i really need to take time out for my personal meditation,which i find hard to get these days.......but im working on it.

 

well thats about it for now,but i hope to post any progress i make at a later date.

right,lol firstly id better dust the cobwebs offlol, i aint been in for a long time,

ive had quite a few family probs to deal with,mind you its easy to make excuses in it.but never mind ey,im here now, and i must say i kinda enjoy talking to my self in her,pmsl,.....

well i still attend circle twice a week and i have past my spiritual healing course,lol.

 and ive attended quite a few workshops lately,ive now learnt that i can read tea leaves like a duck to water as they say,lol.

since joining the wicca class, i have progressed and although theres so much more to learn, ive been allowed to join the coven!!!! and i was initiated on samhain(halloween) on 31st oct 05.

it was a lovelly ceremony,and i attend all the rituals and i love it so much(i do feel at home with this,lol.

the next one is yule(xmas) around 21st dec 05, im looking forward to it!!!!.

both my daughters are expecting babies too!!!,no sign yet from my other daughter though,shes not having any she says!!!!lol.

my mums due to hospital again on dec22nd to find out about the blood clots in her aorta,she proberly need surgery but well see,althoughi do worry as shes 75 now and the last opp she had her heart stopped.so im a bit worried on that score.

on the 20th dec my eldest daughter has a scan and hopefully she will find out what sex the baby will be,as at the moment we have to buy unisex stuff!!!!.....

well i think thats about caught me up to date.... ....i think,lol.

so i hope to be back in here about xmas time with some more updates.