Christians Caring and Sharing

Hi Monette

I'm so sorry I haven't written, Seems like we share a lot, and yet as much as I've tried like you, I just freeze up and can't express myself. I've pretty much shut out the world, and have not had much contact with any one. I just finished talking with Angel, and it was the first time in a long time that I was able to talk with anyone.

I had been helping a friend, I met when both our hubbys were in Chemo. Her hubby died a few weeks before mine, I ended up helping her with her very old dog, and her dad, He became my adopted pop, Well she had to put down her dog and On July 17th Our pop passed away. since the day he died, I've been shut out a little more, I wasn't needed any more and she made that plain.. So I guess the hurt built up, and I found myself retreating more and more.. Because I dropped everything, and went to help her, I lost a lot of people that were there for me..

Things never change for me, I help, I give up my own needs to help others, only to be tossed, when not needed any more..

Well enough of that, You've always been the most patient with me and had never given up on me, now that I've come to believe that the best friends I've had have been my few on line friends.. I'm hoping you know that You were one of the few people I knew I could always count on.. Heres a hug for now just to let you know that I care, and I hope things are going better for you. I didn't even notice the date. I hope and will pray that your ok..

Love and hugs MJ