Your doctor won't give you your medications because you smoke pot?
Where you live, can you get medical marijuana?
Meanwhile, I looked up your meds.
Lisinopril is for high blood pressure and heart problems, your doctor is insane not giving you that!
clozapam, you need that too, it is for anxiety right?
And that last one is a muscle relaxant.
I am worried about you drinking alcohol, it doesn't mix well with your meds, and there is probably still medication in your system.
If you can manage to get some sleep, and tomorrow go in and talk to either that doctor, or another one. If you can bring someone in for support it may be helpful, as you may not be feeling very well.
Keep drinking water, so you won't dehydrate, and please try and stop the alcohol, it can be dangerous. I don't think the pot will hurt you though. Unless it is making you more anxious.
Hang in there. If you need help with getting off anything, your doctor should be there to support and guide you, ask for help. Explain you quit drinking and smoking cigerettes, but what medical reason does she have for not wanting you to smoke pot? It isn't her job to be your mother.
Good luck, sounds like you have a hard couple of weeks ahead of you.