Its funny, I look at the date of this original post and I know that at that time I was beginning to examine and explore the idea of a personal relationship with a deity. It was difficult because it caused me to start right back at ground zero in examining what a god is in relation to the human psyche. I am given to flights of fancy ... always have been but my mind holds and relishes science in all its marvelous complexity... especially the science of the mind ... so the idea of Faith and Belief has been a concept that has perplexed and fascinated me for decades.
And then for some inexplicable reason a year ago the deity Hecate entered my life ... I denied it on principal and logic for a few months and wrestled with the idea that such a thing could occur ... I mean lets face it, I was as close to atheist as a pagan could get. My belief structure was a strange combination of pantheism & science (earth/energy & psychology) ... there was no need or place in my internal structuring for gods & goddesses ... and yet there she was every time I turned around I tripped over coincidence and synchronicity in regards to this strange and enigmatic entity.
The way I personally see the Hecate situation is that a series of events led me to discover this ancient greek deity, further exploration proved to have paralells in my life at that & this time ... She is in my interpetation of 'godhood' a point of focus created thousands of years ago (energy is not distroyed, remember ...only transformed, and time does not always impact energy) to represent a certain aspect of the cosmos .. one of change & transition on a psychological & physical realm. By looking to and exploring this focus/energy, it sheds light into areas of my own life and allows for further definition and understanding, and maybe a hint of direction ... recall what my chosen field is ... I AM an agent of change for many people.
The psyche evolves, its meant to ... thats the point of Life's learning curves. I have come to acknowledge and value the lessons inherent in identifying with Hecate energy and can seek to emulate those better aspects that are assigned to her (pre-Roman, thank you) and learn from the experience.
The same applies to my relationship with Hermes ... which came about in a rather strange and unsupecting manner. I had attended an invocation of Hermes and found myself experiencing something I had never thought would happen in a public forum (well it was a closed, private event ... but public to me means outside of my own personal circle of One, lol) ... total and complete (but thankfully temporary) loss of Self. Like I had been 'once removed' from my conscious Self.
Visions, visitations and divine connections .... I pray to the powers that be that I may live a long life that I may someday find the answers to my questions, or else that I get to see what the finished puzzle is supposed to look like, lol
Peace,
Red