Dear diary,

 

Ever have one of those days where you wake up and you just want to crawl back into bed...do it..it's a sign of what's to come for the rest of the day. Somewhere between your wonder filled dreams and the nasty alarm clock some part of you realizes that today is better served in bed..Hidden under the covers and away from the big nasty world.

 

That's my day today..although it started of as a "nice normal day" hey by the end it certainly didn't feel that way.

 

Work was work..nothing too exciting except..oh yeah my boss is asking me to bring stuff home to do "cause it's be nice to have it done" ...not like I haven't been given enough stuff to do at times...there are  times when I feel that the jack of a trades should just become a Jack a$* and opt out of all the extra curricular activities. Then the wonderful individual tried to muscle in on my quarterly rites....Could you work that saturday...hmmmmm a that would make my Saturday quota a month of Saturdays in a row......I don't think so..... not this time...I feel for you and all but.....no.

 

Then driving home the words in my head..."I feel like I've been cursed"....I begin to ponder the thoughts of my past actions.... actions done as a young and angry woman.....And I wonder why it is I still cling to old wounds like badges of honour? Still desire to hear the words "i'm sorry" .And after so many years want validation for my thought and feelings that were so quickly dismissed in the past....What is it within myself that will be quelled or accomplished when those individuals who hurt me tell me something I already know?

 

So I open my mail...oh joy the presents of  yes insurance.... why is it that you have to have car insurance by law and yet those same politicians can't curb the rates to something sustainable? My insurance company has dropped my broker so now they have found another "reasonable rate" for me at 2x the price...blood sucking leeches.

 

I finally get to talk to someone calming and able to speak my language only for some obnoxious individual to beep though and start out the converstaton in an aggressive manner... nothing worse than starting off a converstion with "whatever the "explisive" you did it "deleted due to adult content " didn't work". Great....get my blood pumping get me right riled up.... but however I know my own temper and decided to opt out of the conversation....Kudos for me!

 

So here I am rewinding the events of the day and thinking you know what i should've stayed in bed and said "(can not be shown due to group settings) the world!" and crawled back into my comfey blankets and drifted to the sweet oblivion of dreams.