Red, I certainly would not try to belittle or minimize your pain. However, certainly, I know, from reading your hundreds of writings on these pages, that you at your core, know there is more than this. Whether we differ in the particulars of our beliefs, be it zen, quantum physics, shamanism, wicca, there is an undeniable connection to consciousness beyond ours. You've met the spirits in your house, felt the spirits in the trees, used forces beyond the pale to read the cards. The harsh reality that your comfort spot, the forest, is being transformed, does not change that you've felt, or known all these things.  Faith then, is not blind, for you see the changes and you feel the destruction personally. No one has ever said faith is easy. History shows thousands whom have died for their faith. Faith is accepting that no matter what happens, that there is a reason. That is important. Read it again. There are very few who know the wills of the gods. We simply don't know the reasons things happen the way they do. You can go stark raving mad trying to rationalize every action and why and how they all fit together. It is not for us to attempt it. Faith is simply believing that there is a reason, being grateful that you had time to experience beauty, and moving on. Yes, Red, your forest is being destroyed. But, somewhere else a forest is being planted, a garden is being sowed, a field is being returned to nature. It's not all bleak. Faith allows you to believe in yourself. We are all part of the whole. Nothing ever stays static. The forests and fields that I played in from 4 to 14 is now used car lots and fast food stores. But I found new forests in new places. Faith tells me, that there are many realities. We are here, in this one, at this time, for reasons sometimes unknown. Perhaps it is enough, that the opinions you have personally changed,  in yourself and others, to look closer, to fight the sprawl, to respect the earth, perhaps it is enough that you cared, that could be changing energy patterns for the future. Don't doubt yourself or your experiences. Health issues, friends moving, other things, these
things happen, but it doesn't change those experiences of happiness you felt before. And it doesn't close the door on new experiences that will also be as good. You have much to share and teach, too much to question your faith. Beliefs may change, faith doesn't.
As a Gemini, I know that emotions can swing sharply between the two personas that we feel. It is best to stay balanced between the two. I'm not saying that's an easy thing to do. But look for the balance Red. Remember your Celtic roots. We can laugh at anything, especially if there is nothing that can be done to change it. I hope you find peace.