I wonder how many relate to this?
This weekend has been one enlightenment after another of varying degress, and in some case confirmation of things I've already suspected. For a long time I have lived in a cyclic/seasonal manner ... meaning, my life reflects the aspects of the season I am in tune with, it makes for powerful, interesting and even comfortable moments. However, I've come to realize that my Path is and has been influenced by a larger elemental cycle.
I've often recognized the traditional four quarters as a powerful conjunction, and yet it is the elemental triad of earth, air and sea that I am most attuned to, fire is my catalyst (thus far). It is this triad that shapes my Path ... granted hind-sight is perfect, but at this age I have the ability to look back and see how influence and environment affected how the path progressed....
At birth I was given Hawk as my namesake and as a kid I truly, truly believed I was wind-born ... I was convinced I could fly, lol Wind enthralled my senses, I would (and still do) listen to it in the trees, across the plains or just laying in the grass. My days and nights were filled with stories, art, lessons, dreams and make believe. Flights of childhood fancy? perhaps ... but it shaped who I am....
Eventually the wind sent me to Alberta and brought me to Earth... from there I began to grow my Self, years full of studying by way of the plains, mountains and forest ... lessons never to be forgotten. My first independant steps on my pagan path. The beginning of many Life's Lessons and eventually, the strength and surety to live and learn. No surprise then that I found a home here in the midst of a deep woodland valley ... 9 years I have lived here, studying, learning and maturing into my strengths and decisions ... and now the land is being taken from me, forcing me to ... well... venture out of the trees. My choices have been made and my feet are firmly on my Path, is it coincidence that Water has displayed itself prominently in my life for just over a year now?
It started last year with ideas of moving to BC (the ocean fascinates me), dreams of shorelines and the sound of waves with periodical excursions to the awe-inspiring Niagara Falls. Tarot readings, oracles and runes have all held promise of elemental influence. This weekend I have spent a lot of time lakeside ... Lake Ontario is big and holds a great deal of power in it ... you can feel it touch you. I stood there on the edge of the dock Saturday night, it was just Me, the wind and the dark depths at my feet as a friend stood silent watch. For me, there is a love/hate relationship with Water... it fascinates me completely and yet it has been the agent of my death at least once ... so to open myself and feel it slide through me was a tentative introduction to the next stage of my life. I admit to a certain amount of skittishness over the prospect, but I guess we'll see what comes.
In the triad ideaology, Fire is the catalyst ... the agent that creates shifts and changes, moving us from one perspective to another. I think that when we pay attention to the correlations in our lives, to the rythm of the natural world, we can see things for the wealth of knowledge they hold. Granted, viewing the road ahead is chancy at best, but with an understanding of the guiding force one can predict a few possible avenues and act accordingly.
I think one of the reasons for this mental ramble is because I have noticed with increasing awareness, just how divorced people have become from the very basics of human life ... we shut the elements out, we no longer see how they influence us in such intimate ways ... or we don't seek to live and learn from them, in fact we either attempt to dominate the awesome forces of nature or we fear them hysterically (and sometimes with very good reason) .... doesn't it simply make more sense to live day to day with this awareness?
Blessings,
Red