Holy shit! I'm thinking you cleared an artery with that rant ... your doctor should be pleased.
I can not believe that you think for one moment that I would buy into ANY monotheistic system, be it mystical, magical or mythical - geeeeeez. My curiousity is what it is .... just because I want to have a working knowledge of kabbalah (at least on a conversational level) doesn't mean I'm going to convert to judaism or start speaking hebrew. It means that my thirst for knowledge has not yet outstretched my grasp and whether this may change my perception of my own abilities remains to be seen. Nor does it mean I'm going to suddenly get religious ... just how gullible do you think I am??
You have, through the Goddess religion, and the old ways, been able to connect and break through in ways that are astounding to the people in your circles. ... Yes. Because I trust my own collection of knowledge and understand the dynamics involved.
I would suggest that you would be better served continuing down that path rather then taking seriously anything connected with the propaganda machines of autocratic religions. I usually check the bathwater for babies before tossing it out... I never know what I'll find.