Ive had 2 dreams and Im unsure what my guides are telling me through them...............one dream............I saw a man who was part of a team of people building a house.............and as the group all worked together to lift and build.........they stopped..........and the supervisor said we are all a team..........if we all rise and one of us fails we still fail............and I remember the man coming forward and saying I didnt lift as hard as I could..........and they all did it again and was able to work together......................and get this wall lifted...............
IN another dream............I was with my best freind...........and we were walking and talking............and he was trying to go swimming..............and I remember asking him if I could go and he put me on his list..........and I remember seeing a bunch of swimming pools........but there was one pool where I remember asking is this where the black students go??? thats all I remember.............
I dont know what these dreams mean...........all I know is lately in my own personal relationship with someone............things havent been going well...........and Ive been trying hard to figure out what my responsibility is and what feels right to me.............and its finding the balance of the 2 thats challenging................
How do I love without expectations??? How can I be in a relationship and expect nothing..............its hard..............because there are things I want to experience in my relationship.............thus the expectation comes into play.................I want my partner to be emotionally attached when we are together............whether its sexual or non sexual............I want mutual respect.............I want my partner to not feel like its a hard thing to make room for me in his life........................are these things wrong to want???
Ive been in enough relationships to know now that I need to be responsible and not project my fears............but I also have learned about what I want in a relationship..........and what I want to get out of it...................are these things wrong??? we all have some expectation...............from our partner.............I dont know.............I love this man............but he says things like Im too intense for him..........and he wants me to be more emotionally detached when Im with him..............and when we are sexual looking into his eyes sometimes is too much for him..................and for it to be a pleasant experience he wants me to be detached as well.................is something wrong with me?? In my heart I feel something has to be wrong with someone who has to have a level of detachment for them to feel good about their relationship....................
I do know I am passionate, and intense..........but not smothering............we have our space............and have days off............so I just dont know where all this is coming from.................and I dont really know how to talk to him about it.............I really feel like hes been used to having things his way..........and being in control............and there is a level of fear here that I cannot fix.......nor do I want to..................
Anyone reading this with any good advice...........and insight............I welcome it..........
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