My condolences on the death of your mom.

I too lost my mom just a year ago. She had been sick with a laundry list of ailes for about 10 years, progessively getting worse. At the end she didn't recognize us, couldn't walk, and slept most of the day.  I can relate to your comment that that you cannot be sad. I too feel the same way. Mom was tortured with all her afflictions, and she wanted to go for some time. It was so painful to watch her be in pain, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I feel the release with her passing and cannot feel sad. I felt odd that I wasn't sad. It's comforting to hear that I am not alone.