|
|
 |
|
Reply
| |
Wow..I cannot believe just how long I have been inactive never-the-less do a journal. I have managed to finally get back to what I enjoy and that is sharing and caring with this group. Many of you have helped me so much. As I sit here today I am trying to figure out how I can bring down my walls for some of the hurt has been so tremndous thus far from this New Year that I feel I need to protect myself from further hurt. I like Lavendar cannot even bring myself to write it but I am sure at some point it will come out. I am exetremely thankful for one thing, and that is the healing circle here although I have not been able to attend as of yest, my dear sister Beck has allowed me to put my name in. I had a very bad scare with my health in which they thought I had cancer and I thank the Healing Circle and GOD that the results came back negative. Seems as if my health sure has taken a toll on me this year but I am on the mend. I am now once again running to the hospital to see my mother and tend to her. I am happy that I can make her feel safe and comfortable for I am the only one she trusts. Hopefully she will be going home probably Wed. of this week. Thank goodness something told me to go over to her house early last week for when I got there she was running a 102 fever. The live-in was going to call me but I got there first . You know when that inner voice just tells you something is wrong? My Mom is bed-ridden so we can never take the chance that she just has a cold for it will set into pneumonia real quick. I must say that I handled things way differently than in the past and I do believe I owe it to this group, with everyones advice as to how to handle my family. I simply dialed 911 and my brother just stood there in shock. He saw NO need to have my mother go to the hospital. I simply ignored him and attended to my mother. Sure enough when we got to the hospital my mother had bronchitis and the doctor had told all of us that it was a good thing I got her there when I did because if I had waited one more day it would have been pneumonia. They also found a urinary tract infection. This is all cleared up now, but they are changing her feeding tube tomorrow as it has been over a year since she has it in now. I am proud of the fact that I did not fall into the trap of fighting and arguing with my family and simply did what I felt was right without explaining myself to anyone. Perhaps mybe that I started my journal (Thaks Misty for the push) I will one day be able to express just what is bothering me so deeply. Love and Blessings...Karen PS...Thanks Tessa..you also helped me get started. |
|
 First
Previous
2-9 of 9
Next
Last
|
Reply
| |
dear karen my turn now to try and help you a little,i put you in my prayers and as you may guess in my thoughts, many blessings lavender |
|
Reply
| |
(((Lavendar))) Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. Gee..it seems as if I have been slipping again with my journal..lol. This week I had a wonderful time visiting my best friend Maria who lives about 1 1/2 hours away from me. It was so good to see her and get both of oour minds off our problems even if it was just for a few days. I only wished my stay could have been longer but I had appointments so I had to return. I have made a promise to myself to get there more often. After all if anything shoulkd happen concerning my mother I am only 1 1/2 hours away. This trip made me truly realize that I am NOT trapped as I felt I was in the past concernning my mother. It sure was a breath of fresh air and plan to do it much more often. I feel so fortunate to have a best friend that I can share everything with, for I always remember my mother saying that in your lifetime if you have just ONE best friend you are very lucky. You can have many aquaintances but to have a best friend is something entirely different. I now realize what she was saying. I am lucky to have 3 best friends that I know that I can trust to never ever hurt me in any way so I am truly blessed. But my friend I just visited is truly my soul sister and I know that is only once in a life time to be fortunate enough to have. Next time my trip will be longer, that is for sure. Right now I feel quite bogged down with tons of paper work to do, some of my own and the rest of it my mothers. When I look it seems so over-whelming that I do not know where to start so I promised myself to do a bit at a time and this way the picture is not so over-whelming. My mothers for sure MUST be done first for I have to go and get her taxes done. Unfortunately I had to cash in her annuity to keep her household running and of course now must pay taxes on that money which also entails trying to find her a prescription plan so everything becomes complicated. At least I did have a few days break before having to tackle this all. I guess I should be getting a start on this all. Bless you all. Karen |
|
Reply
| |
Hi Everyone...no I have not forgotten about my favorite group that has gotten me though some tough tough times. Seems as if my AOL will NOT let me even atttempt to write anything into any of my MSN groups. have NO idea what thier problem is so I am writing through my interenet exporer. Don't have much time to write but wanted to catch up on a few things and let everyone know I love them and appreciate ALL the help they have given me in the past. Mom passed away on July 29th peacefully in her sleep at home. I will explain when I have much more time. Unfortunately my brother (the one who lived with her ) passed away suddendly on Oct/ 19th. Just 2 1/2 months after Mom. I think I am still in shock over everything for my world is just spinning. I am just trying my best to cope with everything and still have a court date with my son on Dec. 11th for he assaulted me back in June. Trying to keep a brave front on..just wanted to let you all know I have NOT forgotten this wonderful group but as you can see I have not had much time for anything. Thank you all again for your wonderful support/ I promise I shall stay in touch. By the way..what happened top the chat room..lol Guess I have been away long huh? Much Blessings to all...Karen |
|
Reply
| |
(((Lavendar))) Thank you soo much for the information and keeping me in your thoughts. It really means so very much to me especially at this time when I have NEVER felt so low and vulberable. As you know you are ALWAYS on my thoughts and pryers also. Many Many Blessings..Karen |
|
Reply
| |
dear karen hope things are getting a little easier for you,it must have been a shock ,and its gonna be a while before every thing falls into place till then ill keep you in my prayers and thoughts,im well so while the odd prayer comes in handy looking after yourself is most important at the moment,take care of yourself, love n hugz lavender |
|
Reply
| |
I'm not even sure if I can even put my thoughts together for I am just numb. Once again my court case with my son was cancelled at the last minute. Whatever is left of my family are very cruel and downright vicious. All except my one nephew. I guesss each and every one of them forgot what I had done for them in the past for I have taken care of each and every one of them in their time of need. Now they just choose to gossip and cause drama. I am very lucky to have wonderful friends that I consider my TRUE family. I know that somehow I will emerge from this a stronger person and they say everything happens for a reason. Apparently my ex seems to think that it was ok for my son to put his hands on me for he is now a witness for my son basically stating that I was looking for my son that night and I called him. They all seem to think that this a BIG joke which saddens me. I am so very hurt by memebrs of my family that my life will NEVER EVER be the same. Hopefully things will get a bit better for me but for now I am just trying to get through Christmas. |
|
Reply
| |
 Sister K, Wow, I cannot believe that I am just now reading what you wrote in your journal back in 4/06. Slow or what, lol.. What beautiful things you have said. Thank you for your words with regard to our friendship and sisterhood. I cherish you as a friend and a sister, and I'm going to hold you to that promise you made in writing, lolol.. Thanks for your recent visit, as we always have fun and learn so much more about life. It's a new day!! Sorrow is a drag and is very draining. Keep your chin up, and have a wonderful Christmas too!! Forever friends and sisters... God Bless ya Kar.. Luv, |
|
|
First
Previous
2-9 of 9
Next
Last
|
|
|
Important Announcement
Return to �?My Journal