Ginger, I am so sorry, I have no idea what goes through a person mind sometimes.
My heart cry's for Sarah, as I do know that her small heart is broken, and the new little one that is coming. it will be a while before she or he will understand.
I pray that creator will give you stregenth and courage, and will help you during this time. I know that it is so very hard. my spirit cry's out to creator with you,
Many Prayers for you dear one
Rena'