I first made this page two and a half years ago.
I used the page to explain who i was, and why i started the group.
If you'd like to read that page,
I wont explain again, here, my reasons for starting the group, they have not changed, but I have. So here's a bit about where I am now.
This is me now, (((on the left ))) my most recent photo. I had all my hair cut off in a fit of madness, lol, but I quite like it short now.
And this is my daughter Lisa, 17 now. She did great in her GCSE's, mainly A's,a couple of B's. She's now sitting her A'levels, and in september 2004 will start university. She's still the best daughter in the world, and I'm still the luckiest mum!
We're still living in liverpool, we still have our cat, gggrrrr! I still love going out, reading, designing. In fact, my circumstances have hardly changed at all, it's me, as a person, that has changed so much.
In the past 3 years, since coming out, since starting late to it lesbians, I feel I've grown so much as a person. I'm alot stronger, so much more confident. I used to despise myself, even as I started this group, I hated who I was. But now I can feel pride in things I have done.
I feel now as though I know where I'm going in life, I have goals, for the first time, ever. I also feel as though I have accomplished something, both in creating and running this group, and my other group, me animate. Three years ago, I would not have had the confidence, or the determination, to do this.
Every day used to be a chore, a trial. I'd grit my teeth and hope I'd make nightfall. Now I can enjoy some days. I've started to care about myself, about the house around me. I'm finding myself sorting out boxes and bags that have been piled up since we moved here seven years ago, wanting the house to look nice.
For the first time in my life, I have allowed people inside my barriers. I had never trusted enough to allow anyone to be a part of my life, in any sence, but now I've opened up and let people see the real me.
And all this, I truly think it at least started, simply because I found the courage to come out to myself.
So if you are reading this, and thinking about taking this step yourself, I'd say, "go for it!" Some people you know wont like it, and some will go out of thier way to make things hard for you, but for me, the benefits far out weigh the pit falls I've encountered.
Many members have approached me, and said that reading the MY STORY page helped them to find the courage to come out themselves, that finding the group has helped them get through, and that makes me so proud, and so happy.
I still have my animation site, and it's as busy as ever. I love creating things. All the banners, backs, etc at this group are made by me. I've learned so much since starting that site, and creating things has given me an escape, a hobby of sorts, something to keep me occupied when I need distraction. Feel free to take a look around that site, join, make a request, I'll be happy to make you something.
So, welcome to my group, come on in, make yourself comfortable, and have some fun with us.
Very pleased to meet you
Read my story 2001 here