Well...lol...don't know if this is a good sign or not...but I had a lilac bush (it was a small start I had taken earlier this spring from a larger bush). It was doing really well and I used it for my faery workings...pretty much, I had asked the faeries to give me a sign about my upcoming surgery (lapex, with possible bowel reconstruction) and I left an offering of water on the lilac bush (my usual method) and the lilac bush died....It was doing really well so...I don't know if I should take this as a sign or not. I pulled the lilac up -- the root is still green and alive, but the stem shooting up from it has died so I pulled this off and repotted the root, hoping that it will come back next year. But....is this a good sign or a bad sign? I'm kinda thinking it may be mean that the surgery will be an end (for the endo) and a new beginning (but the plant hasn't come back yet, but it has only been a couple of weeks...I'm thinking it will prolly be next spring befoe I get any new shoots starting). I was just wondering how others who work often with the fey would interpret this -- maybe I am too close to the situation to interpret it clearly. But I have gotten other signs...I'm just worried that I am hoping too much and I don't want to get my hopes up to be let down again if this surgery would go the way of the others (I only have about two to three months pain free from the other surgeries and then the pain comes back). I don't think I can handle another big let down again. I work with Kali alot, and I asked her for a sign too -- my soul sis and I dedicated a picture of her as my living deity -- when we did this ritual, we joked about the glass in the picture frame and how Kali wouldn't like being caged behind it and Autumn (my soul sis) made a comment about how when I really needed Kali's energy, she would find a way out of the glass...I was working out in the garden, in the flower bed that I have sorta dedicated to kali (the bed is made up of poppies) and was meditating on the upcoming surgery and the picture fell off my altar and the glass broke. I immediately thought, she's telling me that all will go well -- that she will be with me during this surgery. But I am afraid I am talking myself into having hope...when maybe I shouldn't. I don't know. I think I just need to stop thinking about the whole situation.

Thanks for listening -- any input would be greatly appreciated!

love and light

angie