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I have been such a bad, bad girl. I haven't written for ages, even though I keep being told that it is something I really must do  . So I'm starting a new journal, with a determination to enter into it regularly. We'll see how long this detrmination lasts lol It's been very busy these last couple months. I had a part time job until the end of May. In April and May I also worked 3 horse auctions, including all the preparation and follow up. All done with those now until the fall. Also for this past month I've been handling reservations for an upcoming trail ride a club I belong to puts on. That and a little behind-the-scenes help to make sure everything gets taken care of. I've got the meal tickets made, and cards ready for vehicle tags, reservation list and charges ready and blank forms for those that just show up. The ride is this weekend and it should be a good one, have about 100 people registered and there's always a bunch that just show up. I'll be going down Fri morning, am really looking forward to it, even though I'm not bringing my horse. Things have been to unsettled this year, I haven't ridden her at all, she's getting on in age, and I don't want to put too much work on her. (How's that for a bunch of rationalization lol). Today I need to do laundry and pack up everything so I can leave early tomorrow morning. It's just a 90 minute drive to the park but I need to be there early. Think I'll take my saddle with me, just in case. Every day or so I try to do a meditation and then draw some Tarot cards, asking what do I need to deal with today. The other day, for 2 days in a row, I got the exact same cards. I suppose this means that someone is trying to tell me something, don't you think lol. GypsyDragonLady |
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The trail ride went well, with only the expected number of problems. I think the club made some money, which is good because this ride is it's major support. Saturday morning I woke up early, just before the sun came up - in the not still night yet not yet dawn period. I wrote down my thoughts right away. 'I don't know if I can put this feeling into words. Waking up before the sun rises, watching the dark of night change to the gray of dawn to the bright light of true morning. Walking in a misty never-never land and listening to the unquiet sounds of the forest starting its day. This is the way life is meant to be. Even my morning mediation, though done within the confines of the sparse cabin, was somehow different, while nothing was different: eyes closed, prayers said, petitions made, thanks given, period of reflection. Opening my eyes seemed to bring me back from another place, a special place, another world all to its own. Here's to hoping I can recaputre that feeling again. And wouldn't it be wonderful to be able to bring that place back home with me!' The next morning was not nearly so grand, probably from the partying I had done the night before. But I cherish the memory of the first morning and wonder how I can bring it to reality in my city apartment. Other good news, maybe, is that I went back to work for my former employer, but not in the same position. If there is less pressure on me this time around I think it will work out. I still have some reservations, time will tell. All I need to do is listen the my Angels, Guides etc. and trust what they tell me. GypsyDragonLady |
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I have been real bad about this journal. I'm back working at the place that fired me last year. It's amazing how, while people there change, nothing else does. It's turning into the same mess it was before, the same pressures and the same frustrations. But I was meant to go back there. Don't understand it, but 'know' it's true. I had a really great experience last weekend. Every few months or so there's a psychic fair held locally. I always try to go. I've connected with, what I think, is a really great medium, Karyn. I go to her even when there is no pressing problem. Anyway, last weekend I went on Saturday afternoon and signed myself up for a reading with her. The list was long so I knew I'd have a wait of a couple hours. A lady, Kathy, came in looking for a reading, but Karyn had an engagement to go to and had to leave at a certain time so didn't think she would be able to do it for Kathy. I overheard their conversation and just 'knew' that I should give Kathy my slot, but didn't say anything. A little while later Kathy sat down next to me and we started talking. Again I got the feeling that she needed this reading and should give her my time slot. I rationalized that I didn't have anything going on Sunday, I lived close by and could come back. It would be no big thing for me. So I had her take my slot. She and her friend Dawn were so grateful they bought me a drink at the bar and we talked all the time until it was time for her reading. Dawn & I talked while she had her reading and then a little bit afterwards. It was like we were very old best friends. And so many things in our lives were similar. All in all it turned out to be a wonderful afternoon and left me with a with such a good feeling! I did go back on Sunday and had a marvelous reading with Karyn. It was one of those readings where everything made sense, everything fit into what was going on now and with future plans. Karyn also thanked me several times for letting her read for Kathy. She said she felt it was important for Kathy to have her reading and normally would have stayed as long as necessary, but was tied up with this other engagement. And I did get an absolutely beautiful Rose Quartz egg. The kind you can get lost in, peering into her depths. GypsyDragonLady |
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This year is starting out to be roller coaster for me...just going way up and then way down; like a bouncing ball. Good things, like a late holiday dinner with my son, him frosting the Christmas cookies like in days of old. Not so good, losing my dog Pecos after 14 years with him always at my side. Throw in some unexpected auto repair bills and you can kinda get the picture. Let's hope that the Fates are getting all the baggage done and over with early so the rest of the year can be smooth sailing. And if not, well what will be will be. We'll deal with what comes then knowing that there's family and friends on both sides to lend their support. Peace be to all GypsyDragonLady |
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Well, I've gone and done it! After just one week of being completely alone I couldn't stand it anymore. In the wee hours of Saturday morning I found my way to the local SPCA site. And what did I find? Just the cutest little femle red heeler (or Aussie Cattle Dog and the AKC has dubbed them). My first instinct was she was there for me. But, in my usual doubtful way, I dealt myself one card from my favoite deck. It was the Moon: pictured on it was a wolf on one side and the ghost of a wolf on the other. What better confirmation could I want? So (after second and third and fourth thoughts) I rushed over there, almost at the crack of dawn, killed an hour or so waiting for them to open, and now am her very proud owner. On the way home her name popped into my head, I cal her 'Spryte'. I'm certain that Pecos had something to do with her being there if such a thing is possible. On the way home I felt 'lighter' than I have in quite some time. I just got her home last night and already it's as if she's always been here. Peace to all, GypsyDragonLady  |
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This seems as good a place as any to try and get back into the swing of things. These last months I have been getting into some 'bad' habits at work and they carry over into the rest of my life. Things like working late, working through lunch even though I don't get paid for it. There's so much still to be done. I have to keep reminding myself I can't do it all. I've missed everyone here, missed keeping up with what's going on on the boards, and greatly missed chat.. On a brighter note, Spryte is settling down a little although she is still a handful. I promise some pictures if I can ever figure out this camera I have. And it is springtime, time to get the garden in shape. I've started some of my plants from seeds this year indoors. My kitchen table is turning into a veritable forest of greenery. I've got Moonflowers, Gaznias, Marigolds and Four O'Clocks popping out of their seeds. You can almost see them grow! The Moonflowers get so tall so fast they don't fit in the starter box after a few days. I just love it! Peace to all GypsyDragonLady |
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Well, I've gone and done it! Killed my Marigolds & Gaznia's - think I gave them too much water. So I'm trying again with them. But the Moonflowers and Four O'Clocks are doing just super. I've got them out of the starter box and into small peat pots already. I desperately need to get the garden itself ready for them, but they're calling for rain all week. And I'm working an auction this weekend. How come everything always seems to happen at the same time?  I think I'm finally coming out of the bout of depression I've been in. Starting to get a little ummph in me. Still haven't figured out why it hit me so hard this year, but with a little bit of help I'll get by. I'm so very thankful that my family never fought when our parents passed. Not that there was very much of value, mostly just sentimental things. I can still see us sitting around my brothers table after my Mother passed saying "Well, I'd like this if no one else does. But if someone else wants it, take it by all means" It took us a while to get through but we managed. And it was the same when my Father passed. They had both given us all the love we could want. Peace to all GypsyDragonLady |
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Can a 'good deed' go wrong? You bet it can...Yesterday coming home from work traffic was real slow. It sped up a bit just before the entrance to the expressway. Maybe I was going a little bit faster than I should have, but who would have expected someone to come to a dead stop at the beginning of the entrance ramp? The good smaritan was just giving a pedestrian the right of way, the car behind him stopped, but it caught me un-awares. I ended up next to the second car, which of course in much better than hitting him (lol). I think what struck me the most was that I had to let 4 other cars, that were behind me, pass before I could get back on the ramp proper. No one seemed to realize what had almost happened. I thanked my Angel for preventing what could have been a very nasty accident and proceeded home without any further incidents. I'm sure there's a lesson in this somewhere, just haven't figured it out yet. Well, I just had to tell someone this, so there it is. Peace & Love GypsyDragonLady |
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The clouds have been so beautiful lately. I catch glimpses of them going to work and coming home. Sometimes I even see pictures. I often wonder what they mean, what they are trying to tell me. I long to just stop and gaze at them - which is not a good thing to do on a freeway lol. One day, soon I hope, I'll be in a position to truly enjoy them Peace & Love Gypsy |
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Several time a year there is a Psychic Fair where I live I'm somewhat of a 'junkie' and always try to go. I've developed a relationship with a particular medium, but she wasn't there so I picked another one, hoping Spitir was guiding me. and I had an interesting reading. His style was completely different from what I'm used to. I few pieces of the puzzle were put into place concerning connecting with guides and how to phrase conversation with them. I told him I felt there was some kind of connection with my boss, which he confimed. He said I had been burned as a witch in a past life. I've no reason to doubt his sincereity, but hasn't just about everyone been burned as a witch? He also confirmed a connection with my hubby from the past. The problem with past life readings is they are so very hard to verify. I don't consciously know that this happended. And perhaps I phrased the idea wrong, saying I felt there was instead of asking if there was. If anyone has any thoughts on this, please feel free to add to my thread. Peace & Love GypsyDragonLady |
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Gypsy,
I have given this subject some thought myself, and only til i read your posting that I get my own answer. Its really not about where we were in a past life, or who we were, the details irrevalant...what really matters are the emotions that connect us to these lives. Perhaps in our need to have control of our situations we tend to look outward at little details rather than go inside the feelings we have towards a prospective Past life connection. Rather than focus on the "lives" themselves, try to feel the emotions you have with that other person. Sometimes, just giving validation to the emotion is enough.
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On giving this past life thing some more thoughts, and getting some other opinions I'd like to add more on the topic. To me it makes no difference what happened 'back then'. Which was confirmed with what the Reader said. I have already resolved any issues. However, my boss (who according to the reader thought he could have prevented it) has not yet resolved the issue. Knowing that the feelings of responsibility and connection are really coming from him changes my outlook. Knowing that I don't feel so obligated to him. And if things don't work out at the office, or if just the time to leave comes, I don't think I'll have the emotional problems that kept me there before. Peace & Love GypsyDragonLady |
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