First let me say wow!

I have finally found an arena where I can hopefully make friends and everyone is like me, I have been in some chat rooms/sites where I seem to have attracted very 'physical' comments which made me feel very uncomfortable!!

Anyway this is my story and I would love lots of pen-friends and when I can get the courage I would like to chat  in the  chat rooms.

I met my husband 17 years ago when I was 16 and he was 30, now I will cut a long story short and say we got married when I was 21, had my son when I was 23 and I think from 16 I suddenly tried to play the role of happy little wife, have had no confidence in self, when things did'nt work (i,e sex awfull, hurt and just horrid, nuff said) blamed self as I have never been with anyone else ever.

Anyway 2 years ago went back to university, suddenly realised I have got a new found confidence, fell in love with someone totally unsuitable but shes great, just not mine! However for the first time ever things went off, I'm talking fireworks and feelings I have never had and I feel so comfortable and 'normal' for the first time ever.

The situation now is I am leaving husband when I finish uni in June and can support son and self financially, husband knows this but not why, I plan to be open and honest as soon as free but I am aware the cost of being free with myself will mean major pain and upset for son, he's only ten and does not know that mummy will leave, just that I am unhappy unfortunatly.

The worse thing is this secret side of me, something I desperatly want to express but have to keep hidden, well june not so far away, but don't get me wrong, I am terrified, I have never had to pay a bill before, he takes care of everything, so i know it is going to be difficult but I cannot live this way any longer.

So if anyone if curious and not put off get i touch, will answer e-mails, honest and i am a good person, I know I am