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| From:  ¤Tꧧa¤ (Original Message) | Sent: 19/02/2006 12:19 p.m. |
| Well I seem to have lost my little space of MSN and most of my other haunts are gone so, I humbly come home here. Hopefully nobody minds . Not sure where to start alot has happened in the last year or so. Im now divorced, had surgery(urgh), have been seriously ill with double pnuemonia(double urgh), found myself in a dangerous relationship with someone who is obessed with me(lets not get to deep here yet, I know how some celebreties must feel anyway) lol, and have had a revolving door of roommates.. Thats a pretty good summary, of the worst stuff. On the good side, Ive continued with my clay work, and have found I have so many ideas now I have to write them down. Speaking of writing I am writing poetry again! I also find myself being a better mother, I cherish more the time I get with my daughter, even if its not as often as it should be. Shes growing so fast!! Ive made wonderful new friends, joined a local group of solatary wiccans, even tho I am not wiccan, its nice to be in the company of like minded people! Hmm I think that is it for now... soo today is Sunday ~ Crown ~ voilet ~ Spiritualty Every time you don't follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness. Shakti Gawain T:)  | |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 22/02/2006 4:20 p.m. |
| Today is Wednesday ~ Solar Plexus ~ Clear Thinking ~ Yellow ~ (Dream Symbol) joy/laughter ~ (note) E When you arise in the morning,
give thanks for the morning light, for your life and strength.
Give thanks for your food
and the joy of living. <o:p></o:p> If you see no reason for giving thanks,
the fault lies in yourself. <o:p></o:p> -Tecumseh<o:p></o:p> Not up to a big entry today, but I am trying to see the joy in the day..:) ~ T | |
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| Ohhhh, how ive missed you!! Sounds like life has kept you on your toes and you have managed to come out the other side of troubling times still smiling - gotta love you more n more Tess! Not every day is an easy one, but still theres lessons to be learnt from each and every one of em - some harder than others and some that are quite pleasant...these make up for the blah days, dont you think? So sorry to hear about your loss hun...what you said about feeling the way you do - makes perfect complete sense...have been down that road - go with it, dont fight it and let yourself grieve as only you can - let no others expectations stop you from feeling as you need to - they may be able to relate, but only you know whats right for you. Sheesh...i not seen you in so long Im telling ya all these things u already know lol. Just want you to know I loves ya, cares about ya and misses ya heaps. Hopefully will catch up with you in chat one of these nights soon. LLB to you  Sahmmy  |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 23/02/2006 12:35 p.m. |
Ahhh Sammy Huggles you!!! Ty hun:) I can't beleive how long its been since I've really had the chance to be here, really I havent even begin to relay half of what has gone on, or the enourmous changes that has happened. But here I am, and where Im supposed to be for the moment that I am in it. Strangely enough I understand that statement more then I ever did, and I suppose a year from now Ill understand it even better. lol Remind me to write you an email so we can catch up on personal stuff, Im afraid the most time Ill get here is early mornings in ESt time, but maybe I can catch you on Sunday nights or maybe mondays.. Thrusday ~ Heart Chakra ~ Green ~ growth ~ Archangel Raphael ~ (Dream Symbol) love (note) F "Death cannot stop true love; it can only delay it for a little while."
~The Princess Bride
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Tessa, lovely to see you back on the journal boards... An idea if you are interested, do you think you may be able to encourage others to post on the Journal Boards? Either way its wonderful to see you active :) Blessings Misty |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 25/02/2006 12:34 p.m. |
Sure I shall try Misty.. give me a couple of ideas of where to start etc. so I dont step on any toes  .. Hugglettes.. With the Baby shower Im giving my neice this Sunday I ran out of time to post the last day or so..... Friday ~ Throat Chakra ~ Blue ~ Communication ~ (Dream Symbol) Sound~ (note) G Saturday ~ Third Eye ~ Indigo ~ Release old habits~ (Dream Symbol) owl ~ (note) A Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson I like that quote alot:) It is something I aspire to do each day forget my worries of the day before, simply because I worry to much, but Im learning not too so its all good:) ~ T:) |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 27/02/2006 9:40 p.m. |
| Ok lets see, Misty asked for me to find a way to incourage others to Journal more.. Well Im gonna start with this, anyone reading this right now, including Misty(dont ya love me?) I would like to see start a post. I would like to see you, commit 5 minutes of your online time of posting your Strengths... ponder it, whats missing from it?? How could you add to it? What would you like to add? My strengths are : spiritually BEautiful, I am strong in heart, sensitive too those around me, writing (specially poetry and journaling), drawing, a good friend, independent of a need to be clingy to anyone, I love myself for myself regardless of myself(basically I love me for me despite my flaws), Ok now that Ive done that, I think Ill add a few to my list everyday, just to see what pops up.. now onto keeping up with a journal, I like to journal everyday, but most people do not have that kind of time, some days I dont either. So I have decided, Ill post once a week a challenge for everyone and myself, right here in my journal. Monday ~ Root Chakra ~ Red ~ Strength ~ (Dream Symbol) Earth ~ (note) C ~ Archangel Auriel P/s the Baby shower went well!! hehehehehe apparently good planner should be on my list of strengths:) | |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 28/02/2006 12:03 p.m. |
This poem was supposed to have been added to yesterdays post, it pretty much sums up what I say every morning when I wake up and start my day, but other things came up so I added it today:) Make Me Strong in Spirit
Make me strong in spirit,
Courageous in action,
Gentle of heart,
Let me act in wisdom,
Conquer my fear and doubt,
Discover my own hidden gifts,
Meet others with compassion,
Be a source of healing energies,
And face each day with hope and joy.
- Abby Willowroot tuesday~ orange ~ creativity |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 3/03/2006 1:20 p.m. |
Wow its Friday! and here I am with a cold.. Ive done real well all winter not catching anything. Well I suppose stress of the Baby shower and finally (I hope) getting through to my ex-boyfriend that I want out of the relationship! Well apparently not too many people read my journal, hehheheh now I can get all icky and no one would be the wiser eh?? Just kidding.. dont have enough time to be all dramatic, I leave that for my ex's lol. Allright today is Friday ~ Throat Chakra ~ Blue ~ Communication I think I need to work on my communicating with the community(say that 3 times fast ) So Big Big Huggles to ya all... This quote about covers my thoughts in getting you all to journal: "It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop." ~Confucius |
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tut tessa how could you think we dont read your diary,i do and im sorry your having such a bumpy time of it,your cold is no doubt caused by your stress,we dont take care of ourselves when all isnt right so im putting you in my prayers and hope things get easier,love light and many blessings lavender |
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ooops sneaks in and reads tessa's journal so she is none the wiser  |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 5/03/2006 12:37 p.m. |
| Im going rollar-skating with my daughter later today, should be fun, havent been skating in almost a year now. Hopefully I wont come home with too big a bruise on my hiney! lol At a skating rink is where I met her father, but these days its mostly kids skating. Wow, it is hard to beleive Im single again.. Sometimes Im not sure what to do with myself, but I truely beleive leaving my daughters' father, and getting out of my relationship with my ex boyfriend( six months to do it in! Whew!) Is where I am supposed to be. I am hoping someone better suited to me will come along, but not to soon. I need a breather~! Today is Sunday ~ Crown Chakra ~ Purple ~ spiritual connection To know what you prefer instead of humbly saying Amen to what the world tells you you ought to prefer, is to have kept your soul alive. ~Robert Louis Stevenson |
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Tessa...I am so sorry to hear of all your ups and downs and heartbreaks. You are in my prayers and thoughts. Blessings...Karen |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 29/03/2006 1:46 p.m. |
Thank you Karen any prayer is welcome! Sorry everyone I havent felt like journaling lately.. Not sure what the problem is. Winter blahs I suppose. Thrusday ~ Heart Chakra ~ Green ~ growth ~ Archangel Raphael ~ (Dream Symbol) love (note) F If you want your life to be more rewarding, you have to change the way you think. ~Oprah Winfrey, O Magazine |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 30/03/2006 2:38 p.m. |
Wow yesterday just sucked! It seemed like everywhere I turned was negitivity! what is going on with everyone and everything?? GRRRRR!! Anyway, instead of letting it all get to me, I went for a walk, and heard some of my favorite songs on the radio. So almost everything is honkydory, cept for my love life which is nonexistant. lol All in good time or at least that is what I keep being told, of course its easier to say than hear:) Friday ~ Throat Chakra ~ Blue ~ Communication ~ (Dream Symbol) Sound ~ (musical note) G The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed.
| | ~Albert Einstein Thats the way I feel lately half dead, not really living, just existing, its a strange place to be right now, because I was doing so well. I think its partly the weather, partly loneliness. Yes I have friends and they are wonderful! wonderful people!, but Id still like to find someone to share my life with, well besides a pet rat.:) I can't even seem to sit still long enough to work clay, or paint! Im not sure why the two seem to be connected, but they "seem" to be. I put seem in quotation marks because sometimes things arent always what they seem to be, so right now the two seem to be connected but might not be:) Maybe I should get a reading, but then thats not even 100% lol oh well.. Huggles All ~ T | |
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| | | From: ¤Tꧧa¤ | Sent: 11/07/2006 5:12 a.m. |
Wow! I just reread all my entries and everyone else's here too. I quit journaling for quite awhile because it all just sounded the same. The lack of someone to share life with yada-yada-yada. It all is so weird how we get into ruts and dont realize it, doing and saying the same thing over and over, not learning the lesson of whatever it might be we are supposed to doing. I was lonely with my ex, I was just as lonely without, and down right miserable with my exboyfriend. HMmmm odd eh? nope... I was lookin for something within someone else that I was missing in myself.. lol I at times still feel those same thoughts and feelings, but not to the harsh degree they were, and guess what, Im still single:) I havent completely figured out what is missing in me, but I will. So with that maybe I'll find someone to share this bumpy road trip called life, but if not I can make it allright alone; besides not much room in the old jeep for more than 2 anyway.... oh and hey Im 10 lbs lighter !! woo hoo for me!! Huggles till next time ~T
Accustom yourself continually to make many acts of love, for they enkindle and melt the soul.
<o:p>~St. Theresa of Avila
</o:p><o:p> I finally realized that being grateful to my body was key to giving more love to myself. ~Oprah Winfrey, O Magazine </o:p> |
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