What can I change in these things? It's a hate love relationship I have with my own... How about that Mac system, heh, for $8000.00? Dream on... though I have to admit this little "Toshiba," I bought for sixteen hundred a couple of years or more back has served me well .. But, well me and computers? How I have suffered loss, frustration... bringing one near the edge, I swear sometimes...to some black, black, hole one is looking into... or those endless waits and poor performance because there just ain't enough RAM memory for every thing one wants to operate to move around in... things get jamed up. Shish...! Heh! Though I have learned over the years of torment and downright anguish to be less emotional-- More stoic, perhaps?
At the Typewriter level, now, preceding this one, when I was struggling with that infernal machine and my big clumsy fingers... let alone the garbled mess that came out the other end, what with the typos... and my literary ignorance... that only I could read; matching the emotions to what was wrote... I was known to smash them up with an axe... and various other means... I chucked a portable in the Pacific Ocean, one drunken, broken hearted, black, screwy night... What I am trying to say here, trig, is; I, like so many, I bet ... know what your are going through who's been there.... some, of course, went over the edge... There is no guarantee.
I can only hope for you, that somehow you get what you need. We know we 'don't 'always get what we want...' but, hey, 'We try somehow...' heh? Scream it out now the next time: "Get what YOU NEED!!!!!!" Slap the old 'plastic down, and walk out.