Like I had mentioned to you last night, if you can't express your fears and thoughts here, where else can you?  I think this is a perfect spot to express your feelings.  I hope you continue to do so.
I agree with Jacci, girly chats are always a good thing!  Too bad that we live so far apart, we could have more girly chats if we were closer.  But hey, msn does a pretty good job most of the time.  You know I'm just a quick email or phone call away.
Meisha is a very fortunate puppy to have such a loving family.  Not many animals can say they get treated as well as yours do.  She is a very lucky soul to have such a good mommy and she knows it!
I hope the doctors can find out what is wrong with your hubby.  Science is improving at such a fast rate, I hear new things every day at work.  I think it's only natural to fear for those who you love.
Just remember, work is work it's not who you are.  Go in and get the job done and go home.  I've worked with difficult people and crappy organizations as well and it is very draining, but I know you can do it.  You're a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for.
I think school has to be difficult, it's how we learn.  The more we push ourselves to excel the more we will take in.  It certainly wouldn't be worth your while if it was easy.  When your done that course, my goodness, you're going to be one heck a certified Massage Therapist/Reflexologist/Reiki Master, lol.  That's a mouthful!  But it will be worth it.  I think you'll do fantastically.  Try not to be so hard on yourself.  You remind me of me while I was in school.  I'd get all upset after an exam b/c I felt I didn't do well.  Not enough studying, it was never enough, I didn't push myself hard enough.  Then I'd get the grade only to be more disappointed b/c I only received an A-, and not an A+ like I thought I should be always getting.  Where in all reality an employer isn't looking at your grades at all, and isn't that why we further our education?  For better employment opportunities?  It makes no sense for us to do that to ourselves.  We're our own worst enemies.
I think there are many good things that will come your way, you just need to keep an eye out for them.  Take one day at a time, they will happen!
Hope today finds you in a better place.
Luv ya girl!  Talk to you soon,
~Man~