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DEAREST LADY DRAGON FYRE, I'D LIKE TO SHARE WITH YOU A VERY PERSONNAL PART OF MY LIFE, YOU COULD SAY IT WAS THE WORST, OR MAYBE THE BEST. IN 1997 I SEPARATED FROM MY EX. I HAD NO JOB, SINCE HE WAS EXTREMELY CONTROLING & I WAS YOUNG. I HAD NOT A CENT SO I MOVED INTO A WOMANS SHELTER. THERE THEY HELPED ME APPLY FOR FAMILY BENEFITS & AN APARTMENT. I SEARCHED HIGH & LOW FOR A JOB WITH NO LUCK, DESPERATION STARTED SETTING IN. THEN FAMILY BENEFITS CUT ME OFF, THEY SAID I WAS HEALTHY & FIT TO WORK. THEN DEPRESSION STARTED SETTING IN. HOW WOULD I FEED MY CHILDREN, PAY MY RENT & BILLS? MY SELF ASTEAM WENT DOWN THE DRAIN. I STARTED GOING TO THE LOCAL FOOD BANK FOR FOOD BUT ALL I COULD REALLY GET THERE WAS DRY PASTA & OATMEAL, NOTHING FRESH. SO THIS IS WHAT WE LIVED ON. I RECEIVED AN EVICTION NOTICE SINCE I COULDN'T PAY MY RENT, PHONE WAS CUT OFF. THE DEVASTATION I WAS FEELING IS INDESCRIBABLE. THERE WERE DAYS WHEN MY DAUGHTERS & I WOULD GO ACROSS THE STREET TO THE LOCAL GROCERY STORE, YOU HAD TO RENT THE SHOPPING CARTS FOR A QUARTER BUT GOT THE QUARTER BACK WHEN YOU RETURNED THE CART, WE WOULD WAIT IN THE PARKING LOT & OFFER TO HELP CUSTOMERS LOAD THIER GROCERIES INTO THE VEHICLE & THEN RETURN THE CART FOR THE QUARTER, WE WOULD DO THIS ALL DAY UNTIL WE HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY MILK. I'VE NEVER TOLD THIS TO ANYONE BEFORE BECAUSE I DID THIS OUT OF DESPERATION. MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER, DESIREE, BROUGHT A NOTE HOME FROM SCHOOL ONE DAY FROM HER TEACHER. IT SAID THAT SHE NEEDED PROPER RUNNERS FOR GYM CLASS. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I COULDN'T AFFORD TO BUY THEM. A COUPLE DAYS LATER IT WAS "MEET THE TEACHER NIGHT". I WENT, & IN FRONT OF A LARGE GROUP OF CHILDREN WITH THIER PARENTS, SHE REPRIMANDED ME FOR NOT SUPPLYING PROPER FOOTWEAR FOR MY CHILD. I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW HUMILIATED I WAS IN FRONT OF ALL THESE PEOPLE. I BROKE INTO TEARS SAYING I HAD NO MONEY TO BUY THEM. I WAS DEFINATELY HITTING ROCK BOTTOM. NOT ONLY WAS I LIVING IN POVERTY BUT I APPEARED TO BE A BAD PARENT ALSO. I WALKED OUT OF THE SCHOOL, WENT HOME & CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP(I DID THIS OFTEN). THE NEXT DAY MY DAUGHTER CAME HOME FROM SCHOOL WEARING NEW RUNNERS, WITH AN APOLOGY NOTE FROM HER TEACHER. I WAS VERY HUMBLED. 3 DAYS LATER SOMEONE HAD LEFT A VERY LARGE AMOUNT OF FRESH GROCERIES OUTSIDE MY DOOR. I COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHO HAD DONE THIS. I ASKED THE COUPLE OF PEOPLE THAT I KNEW BUT IT WASN'T THEM. LATER THAT SAME DAY, I WAS IN THE ELEVATOR WITH A NICE MAN THAT LIVED ABOVE ME. I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW HIM, ONLY FROM SMALL TALK IN THE ELEVATOR OCCASSIONALY. HE ASKED ME IF I GOT THE GROCERIES HE LEFT OUTSIDE MY DOOR? HE SAID HE SAW ME COMING OUT OF THE FOOD BANK ONE DAY & FELT THE NEED TO HELP ME. HUMBLED AGAIN IT SEEMS! NOT LONG AFTER THAT I RECEIVED A RECEIPT IN MY MAIL BOX FROM THE APARTMENT MANAGER SAYING MY RENT WAS PAID IN FULL FOR THE NEXT 3 MONTHS. WHO HAD DONE THIS? I DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE WHO COULD HAVE AFFORDED THIS. I DID ASK THE PEOPLE I KNEW BUT IT DEFINATELY WASN'T THEM. I ALSO ASKED THE MAN FROM UPSTAIRS, WASN'T HIM EITHER. TO THIS DAY I DON'T KNOW WHO IT WAS, BUT BOY WAS I THANKFUL FOR THESE WONDERFUL GIFTS I WAS BEING GIVEN, & IT CONTINUES! I DID GET A JOB FINALLY, WORKING AS A BARTENDER, NOT MAKING MUCH MONEY THOUGH, JUST BARELY SCRAPING BY. CHRISTMAS WAS APPROACHING & I EXPLAINED TO MY DAUGHTERS THAT I DIDN'T HAVE MUCH MONEY FOR GIFTS. THEY WERE VERY UNDERSTANDING, BUT I STILL FELT BAD. A REGULAR CUSTOMER FROM THE RESTAURANT CAME IN ONE DAY, DIDN'T WANT TO ORDER ANYTHING, JUST HANDED ME AN ENVELOPE & SAID "MERRY CHRISTMAS". THEN LEFT. WHEN I GOT HOME THAT NIGHT I OPENED IT & THERE WAS $1000 INSIDE WITH A NOTE THAT SAID FOR YOU & YOUR CHILDREN. I HONESTLY COULD NOT BELIEVE ALL THESE MIRACULOUS THINGS THAT WHERE HAPPENING TO ME, I HADN'T ASKED ANYONE FOR HELP OUT OF PRIDE BUT FOR SOME REASON PEOPLE JUST KNEW, STRANGERS AT THAT. NOT HAVING MONEY TO SURVIVE IS SUCH A SCARRY PLACE TO BE BUT THEN WHEN YOU THINK ALL HOPE IS GONE, MAGICKAL THINGS WILL HAPPEN. I WILL ASK THE UNIVERSE TO SEND SOME OF THIS MAGICK YOUR WAY . BLESSED BE WITH LOVE, LOVELY LADY LAVENDER |
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Thank you for your story. It brought back a multitude of memories. I was one of those who had the same problems you did and through the kindness of strangers, was set back on my feet. My children and I lived in a state park for a long time, fishing for our dinner and sleeping in a tent or in the car in inclement weather. I could not get work. One day when I was at my ropes end and had only the two dollars for a nites stay in the park, my son came running up with a fifty dollar bill clutched in his hand and told me that a man and woman had given him the money to help us. I was shocked that my son might be panhandling at seven years old. But, he said that all they did was ask where we lived and he told them here in the part in our car. I walked over the thank them and they said that the only thanks they needed was the knowledge that I would promise to do the same for someone else at some time. Then when I returned to our camp site there on the picnic bench was three bags of groceries, wood cut and stacked for our fire and a present for each of my children plus a big bag of dog food and some cans of cat food for our pets. I was so touched. I also found an envelope in the bottom of one of the bags with five hundred dollars in it to help us with a place to stay. And, a job lead for me. We packed camp up the next day and drove to the little town by the park to look for a hotel and to see about the job. I was hired on the spot, and told of a house for rent which we got also. But, My rent like yours was paid up for several months along with the utilities and a telephone. From that moment on we just went up hill and things got better for us. The Goddess had not abandoned us just taught us a little humility. She just delayed opening the window after closing the door to teach me a lesson in being humble enough to accept help from others and that I was not alone as I thought in my trials. I know that things will get better. I only have to swallow my pride and ask for help. I am not one for doing that and always try to do everything alone so as not to burden others with my problems or troubles. I have to be reminded that I am not alone and I sometimes do need to ask for help. It is not a slplotch on my character nor am I weak when I need to have a shoulder to cry on or a friend to lean on. I am just Human. I do appreciate all that is given me and I do not take something for nothing. I give back and try to give back more than I recieve. I would prefer to take commission work instead of donations, or gifts as I feel like I am being independent and standing on my own two feet but sometimes life hands us circumstances that just block us from achieving that which we set out to do. We have to make lemonaade with lifes lemons....and then drink it Without loving friends and collegues and the support they give us, we cannot survive. Blessings on all and a heartfelt thank you. Lady Dragon Fyre |
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