LadySpiritAngelFire's Poetry 1   ~Last Night~ For AmoLuce   Last night I dreamt of Love Last night I went to a place so peaceful... so joyful... My heart was smiling... colours so brilliant... peace so complete... love so unconditional... no words describe it... it just "was" This morning I awoke and I heard your voice within my mind within my heart and I smiled once again Whatever happens... I am.. You are... Love Is By   October 2001     STOP THINKING Find who you are.... Find what you need.... Find love for yourself.... Find the "You"..... Search from within.... Let go of the past.... Let go of fear and pain.... "remember" and just "be".... The moments are precious.... hold on to them all.... but embrace, accept, let go of fear and pain,... then you shall be whole again.... Love yourself, and Love will come to you.... Keep looking...Keep feeling...Keep sensing... stop thinking.... "I love you all"     ~Just some Thoughts and Feelings~   I am soo tired.. yet thoughts haunt me invade my feelings because.. I let them? So I sit and listen to countless voices, words that mean something... some are clear showing their truth as to what my heart feels then there are those that start doubts, fear, worry, pain thought forgotten, pain I didn't know still existed... or didn't want to know... I want to walk away not feel it I wish to breathe deeply air that is fresh and new pieces of my heart slowly mending to once again be of One... I want to touch it hold it gently in my hands and feel it once again pulsating with Love as it should be.... Sadness threatens... pain resurfaced.... trying to accept all... for what it was, is and will be... Love pouring from me Light streaming in a smile confused emotions yet knowing... it's all there... Time.... racing.... Love .... pacing.... Remembering.... Slowly, gently.... no pressure allowed... looking, touching, feeling, sensing, God knows I want it all..... People watching, many judging.... whilst I once again find the "me"... Silent tears for what was, many fears to conquer, until what will be.... will be!!!! Lonely thought... yet all is One.... Some people feel who I really am... don't judge me, or sneer at me, don't hate me nor fear me, instead love me for "me", for all I have, and all I am is Love and Light and you are the same..... My love for all is endless, eternal and true.... my brain aka ego might fit another shoe (hehe) my fears and past hurts struggle to get through, Yet all I know is "I love you" 6th July 2001 (12:55am)     ~Time Stands Still~   Time stands still... as I ponder tonight... I see not much... yet feel and sense... a shift, a thought.... my heart waits.... my soul cries out... for me to see... what it's all about.... the human in me ponders... my spirit wonders.... I ache to know that... which I don't yet remember.... I am but me.... but what of it?... I watch, I listen... I watch, I listen... to those I meet... I feel their needs.... I sense their wants... I'm alone now.. yet full of love.... I sleep, I work, I eat, I rest... and think some more... I want it all.... yet seek nothing.... or do I?.... My soul screams out... "Let Love "Be" ".... My mind argues.... My heart waits.... I sit and cry.... without knowing the reason... but there's an ache... deep within... inside I know what it is Or do I?.... My soul knows... My mind ponders the "more".... My heart fills with Love... I know!!! It's all there!.... But Life strikes out.... again and again..... will tomorrow show me??.... I sigh... and ponder some more By 2001   Where am I going? Been feeling sad, for such a long time. Struggling for something other than loss my heart has been bleeding it seems like forever yet all I ever looked for was true love and joy. I thought I had it once but then it was taken by someone with greed My soul was injured that day my heart broke in two a black hole inside me was all I could feel. My life seemed all but over few joys did I feel mostly just seeking for peace deep within my soul. And then I met others who took from me my trust in people my quest to feel free. My children, my angels, were the only ones here to make me feel loved, somehow even free. In a way I replaced what I needed with what I could give. Love entered my heart again, but for a while, then it got lost somewhere, along the line. Then one day it happened, I set eyes on you. We connected in an instant as if we knew. Our thoughts were the same and our energies "tingled" My heart was happy therefore so was I. Everyday was a joy and the time just flew by. Then something happened still don't know what that moved you away from our "being" from us. I've been waiting and hoping to understand what it was, that made you leave and it has been so hard! But my heart feels enriched by the love we gave freely for it was more then I've ever felt possible. So even in sadness I still think of you as someone so special who'se made me feel loved and I hope that you feel my Love too 16/9/2000   All Poetry © LadySpiritAngelFire   Next Page