'Wind Song' by the way is just about the nicest name of all - mine's too clumsy!!

Hi:)

I chose this because it means 'under the protection of' and similar definitions. I've had to protect my son from the worst of his fathers behaviour and at the same time, not cover it up and help my son understand...when sometimes I don't ..

Also I just recently realized it's not just my son that needs protecting. I need to protect myself from the daily, sometimes hourly demeaning and devaluing way he treats -me- and from how easy it is to slip back into letting him behave that way towards me, and my son.

Great topic idea!

thanks:)

~aegis

I chose Going North b/c that's what I planned to do.  (And I did.) 

 

I was surprised that somebody else used that name.  I had to use GoingNorth2.  I wonder where the other GN went. 

 

 

During my marriage, I kind of died inside. I felt like I was carrying a piano around in my chest. I couldn't breath or stand up straight. I looked like I was defeated. Then I filed for divorce. Despite the danger, and all the ugly things he did, I started to feel fluttering in my chest. It felt like a tiny hummingbird had taken up residence. My hummingbird was the gentle stirings of hope and happiness, so long missing from my life. When I was tempted to N dip I would think, "No, he will stomp on the hummingbird and kill it." That thought gave me strength. Hummingbird was not available for a name, so I misspelled it and voila!

Hi all,

 

I think mine is obvious, no play on words or anything like that-some of yours are so inspirational and lovely.

I just stated the truth-I am like that until you prove yourself untrustworthy-then you are bye-bye.

 

TT

My name is from the Anggun song "Snow on the Sahara".  It represents my spiritual journey to find me.

 

 

 

 

Only tell me that you still want me here
When you wander off out there
To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
In that dry white ocean alone
Lose out in the desert
Ou are lost out in the desert

But to stand with you in a ring of fire
Ill forget the days gone by
Ill protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight

Lost out in the desert
You are lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
Ill be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, Ill pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold
When the shadows come and darken your heart
Leaving you with regrets so cold

Lost out in the desert
You are lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
Ill be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, Ill pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

If thats the only place where you can leave your doubts
Ill hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, Ill pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

Sahara-

That is a beautiful inspiration for your name.

I picked my name after many tries with others that were similiar but taken.  I had visited Italy a few months before and my daughter was Italy when I joined this group.  I was very depressed and lonely.  The exn made me feel not worthy and hence the name, bella for beautiful and a change of my name with it.  I think about changing it but I want to remember no one will make me feel unworthy again.  I am beautiful inside and out no matter how hard he tried to destroy me it didn't happen.  I'm not good at picking user names, but if I did change it I would use bluewater as I love to cruise but that name is probably taken too!

well....

 

       I just got divorced from a man who could tell me the sky was orange while my eyes could see it was blue...and by the end of the convo...I was doubting my own eyesight.

 

      So then a new man immediately pushed into my life and is very similar.  when he told me he was diagnosed 45% NPD I looked up this website.

 

      I feel so confused in so many ways I could not begin to even explain.  

 

so...that is the reason for my name

When Pandoras box was opened, all that was left was hope.

Mine is a little hard to exp. why except of how I feel in this Marriage.  I feel that my feelings and wants, dreams, wishes, hopes, and love has been forgotten and that he only cares about what he wants and so on.  The Broken part well I feel broken inside and each time he hits me it brakes a part of my body or mind.

My husband was in the U.S. Navy for 23 years.