"He who is not everyday conquering some fear has not learned the secret of life." Ralph Waldo Emerson  Can You Spot the N? "When you're in this much trouble,  avoid movment, keep your eyes open, your ears perked and your nose sniffing for trouble,  keep looking straight ahead and for God's sake keep your mouth shut." GOK  Recovery tip:  Join Single Volunteers and help others using your postive nurturing talents.