It's been 7 months NC with the ex-N. She is the devil, people, really and truly. She literally tried to destroy me, my career, and my life. Did everything in her power.

 

And stupid me, I am feeling 'guilty' for having NO intention of emailing her tomorrow with a 'happy birthday' wish. God, what a sucker I am, to have even a second's worth of guilt over someone so awful. But then, that's why I was such a perfect victim--way too nice, emphatic, always putting her first, feeling bad for her.

 

Ugh, tomorow is going to be really hard and sad for me. It will be the definitive 'end' of things--she will know it, and so will I. It's necessary and good, but still, it feels so odd not to be telling her happy birthday.