Hey guys, hope all is well!
Everything is pretty good on my end! If anyone remembers, I sadly had to put my dog to sleep about 2 weeks ago and I was devstated. A week ago, my father surprised us with a new puppy! We are not trying to replace my old dog, in fact, we are still very much upset over the loss but honestly, it helps to have a new little life in the house. I started seeing someone new, he is younger then me (what can I say? I'm a cougar in training! LOL) and we are just having a lot of fun together and he's really nice to me. I have been working hard to pay off my bills and find a full-time job (I have my college degree, in that in between stage right now...) and all in all, everything is looking up.
And then....he called.
Ugh. It's like he has ESP and knows when I am in a great mood. Anyway, he called to give his condolscences about my dog. I politely said "thank you" and within minutes, he was telling me he was so confused (he has a new, disgusting idiot gf) and he can't stop thinking about me, etc etc. I was amazed to not feel any pull on my heart strings. I literally laughed when I read the texts, not believing his BS for a minute. I very gently (don't want to piss him off because then he will start harassing me) told him I would not be going back to him. Amazingly, he just said "okay" and lightly pushed for another day or so but then he gave up & I was relieved.
We spoke today briefly and soon enough, he was implying he couldn't talk because he was with the new girl. I said ok no problem and ended the convo but once I got off the phone, I felt odd. I am feeling those jealousy pangs again. It's so incredibly frustrating to not want someone but still feel jealous.
Basically, I just need help staying NC and not getting roped back in because he's trying to play on my emotions. We have since stopped talking but that really hasn't helped. I feel all anxious and everything is going so well for me right now and I'm so happy, I don't want to go back to that place.
I know the only way to do this is to completely go NC so please save that convo for someone else. He just caught me when I was in such a great mood that I didn't give much thought to it and that's MY fault.
Please guys, anything would be apprecitated. Thanks.
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