Hi Femfree:

 

I just found out that I'm the target again last night about 5 minutes before I turned to this group and wrote for help. My head was spinning and I started to fantasize about a). seeing him again; b). letting him know how he hurt me; c). having sex just once because it's been so long and on and on. After processing it some more and reading the reponses here and those I've saved (i.e., memoir-of-a-season) over the years, I remembered that NC is the only answer. I just lost my good judgment for a spell.

 

So I told my sister I'm not reponding to the question and that it's a non-issue. If he calls I'll hang up. I don't need help with that. I guess I just needed to have contact with those who understand. Not many people in my world get it.

 

Thanks.