I am battling with a difficult decision and the question about "when is enough?".

 

Is distance enough? Is distance from your N parents and dysfunctional family enough? The reason why i ask and would like your feedback on this is that I have had enough. Enough of all the abuse and battling through the seperation and NC period over the last 6 mths. I feel worn down and the turning point recently was when my father, who I have repeatedly asked not to contact me at work, (and yes I set rules to automatically delete emails) is now moving to work in the same organisation and the building across from me.

 

 I am 30 years old. I have finally broken free and now I feel like a bird in a cage. I realise that I am emotional at the moment but what more can I do? I can keep strong but i wonder at what price? Is my career and job prospects worth more than living through this? I have been thinking of moving to another state for some time and there are worthwhile reasons for it and I would love the change. Not just to have some decent space (e.g more than 5kms) from my family but just to have a chance to be happy, grow and not be looking over my shoulder every 5 minutes. I do understand that it is all a matter of how i feel about it all, my family etc it is all in the control of my mind.... but it does come back to my question of when is enough? Should I have to keep battling through it? When is time to accept that you are not running away but just choosing to live a better life?

 

See that is really the thing that I am seeking to give myself permission to do. If anyone else could give me their thoughts and experiences I'd appreciate it.

 

Adeline.