If he dies, he won't be at my funeral!  Sorry, but can't figure out how to edit message.

 

It is a stupid typing mistake, but is not funny to me. 

 

 He could die, and my feelings for  him now are so cold now,  I feel guilty.

 

I guess I could try knocking myself out to get him to want to see me, having dinners, showering gifts, who knows?   But it may not work and the hurt of rejection and "indifference" is always a threat to me.

 

Best Wishes to all.