Had enough, I was always a good sleeper. I was excellent pretending nothing happened, shove it way down, so I don't see it, if I don't see it I don't have to handle it. Done that for so many years... Except for the fact that I have had several PTSD episodes. The latest started in last May. Since next month is my 71st birthday, I figured it's high time for me to go for counseling, and been going there ever since. It's amazing the stuff that keeps coming up and is overwhelming me. I have never cried more, never had so much pain. I have been re-living all the abuse. But I'm on the road to recovery. I wanted to get rid of it all, didn't want to take it with me. I want to live free of her and the pain she caused me for a few years. Hugs, Dolly