You're not crazy. You're in a crazy making situation.
You should have could have would have. Act now. Take back your power.
My suggestion is to follow up on the growing thing permanently and let the mind bender go mess with another's head.
I'm talking strong beause I'm really at the hate and anger stage, but, you are not alone. I laid in our bed many nights wishing I never woke up again. I refuse to waste me on such a loser and forgo what God has in store for me.
Right now it's hard to see, just have faith and lean on us.
(((((Hugs))))))