.(We never told because we thought it was normal, and because we knew the beatings would be far worse if she found out we had told).
We all think alike. I thought it was normal to be beaten and kicked, told that I'm a horrendous curse on her, I'm worthless, etc, etc... At the same time I thought I deserved it because if my own mother tells me what a horrid kid I was, it must be true. I wouldn't tell anyone, because if I was so bad I didn't want anyone to find out.
As far as spanking goes, when all else failed, I spanked my kids. 40+ years ago it wasn't so terrible sounding as it is today. I reminded them how they were expected to behave 3 times. If they didn't listen, I spanked them. I've never beat them or been abusive emotionally or mentally. I knew how that hurts. No child deserves that.
Hugs to you too,
Dolly