Chatte, I wish I could tell you there won't be any pain, but that would just be lying to you. Yes, it does hurt and it will for awhile, we all heal at different rates. But just know we are here for you. You will stay in a perpetual state of pain if you continue on with him, either living with or seeing him. For years I stayed cause I did not want to walk through the pain, but then God led me to this board and it has literally been my lifeline. So many who have been where you are, and are where you are, are on here.  You are NEVER alone. We do understand. Don't even try to explain to people on the outside. They will never get it cause they have never walked in it as we have. Even my own mother still dosen't get it I think.

 

Walk through it here with us and you will get through it. Slowly one day at a time but it will happen and slowly the pain will begin to subside and you will find yourself again and happiness without him. I am so thankful for the peace I am finding in my life, for my health that is returning and my sanity, for my new found self-esteem that is growing in me, for this board, for life. One year ago at this same time I could have NEVER said that if it weren't for this board. I wanted to die. Is that the life you want with him? He WILL drain the life out of you. You are so precious, save yourself, only YOU can. Now I am sending you a big ole "HUG" and lots of love.