I go between disgust and 'can't get him out of my mind, willing to stay in bad living situation because it is too hard to leave'. However, I am leaving next month, I start school again and my student grants have come in and are helping me get my own place with my daughter. I can't go to NC due to our child. He has been down this road before with 2 OW so he is not nearly as bad as he used to be I hear from everyone. Thank God I didn't meet him back then! Yes, he is nice sometimes, actually, half of the time, but it is not real. It is like a therapist taught him the proper responses so that he does not get into more trouble. His passive-aggressive behavior while very, very drunk as usual, sent me into a rage where I threw our clean laundry from the baskets all over the house. It was ridiculous. It was then I realized it was time to get out for my sanity as well as the well being of my daughter. Wish me luck! |