You have to keep NC - you feel slimed after speaking with him because he used you again - Nar Supply that is all they want. Weather we scream at them or answer there questions, they win. You are not jealous - you feel crappy that is how they make you feel when you know what they are. After 14 months of NC (I escaped 18 months ago) I had to speak with him right in front on me at work - I answered no questions - and asked no questions - no interest. .. I have not fogotten one thing he did and the fact that I was addicted. I have my own happy, wonderful life. Peace,