SC-  Thanks- you're not discourgaing me since it has been so long and hasn't let up much I figured it would be a long haul.  Just like BG said, I never had to go NC with anyone or even had trouble dealing with a "breakup" in the past.  I wish I felt some sort of anger towards the N.  I still am stuck in the obsessive stage, wishing that I could help hi or fix this in someway.  It helps to know I am not crazy and there are others out there dealing with the same thing.  Hearbrokengp91